♥ purple night life

difference

2010-08-21T01:42:00.002+08:00

if im gonna say im gonna update whtever has happened so far. my hands and ur eyes will bleed.
too much to say.
well im not here to update

but to say smth tht i realised.
sometimes things can change over a second.
people do mistakes we have to accept them for their mistakes thts when we are true frens
stop over reacting and say ohh he cheated me or she has cheated me
even i was like tht.i called her a bitch for the things which she has done which seems to be the main issue now.but as time goes by i realise im being relli dumb.
i mean evryone becomes a bitch certain part of their life and sometime somthing u fine bitchy might not be to another
we have to accept or to reject
frens are jus not oni to laugh or for them to help u feel all awesome
ur a true one only when u can accept their mistakes
whye isit its nice when she was sweet but hate him when she does smth evil.
evil to ur eyes bt nt to hers.

time check:1.48am

sugar feeel

2010-06-22T23:09:00.003+08:00

GOIN VIVO WITH HER WAS SUPER AWESOME.
ok my eyes are on those heels !!
super nice ones from charles and keith and mondo!
shona loves the heels from mondo..
was super glad she like heels all
and damn! she can choose super awesome heels..
her taste is jus AWESOME..!!

i have to drag her along
for my heels,make up,my one more dress,waxing,threading,manicure,pedicure
much more for my birthday lols..
haha speding time with her was jus jus i have no words..i relli enjoyed my whole day with her.

today was nice to spent time with my classmates at marsling.
rahayu birthday.i enjoyed my bus ride home with dylan and faris.
they are seriously funny .haha.
the bd was near jolyn house.ehhe i called her up cuz of tht lols.
anyways saaw my brother and people there.
feel bad i didnt talk but i was relli upset with someone ,
i jus wished he realised it himself.
but i really miss you alot!!.

okay seeeing ur family and not you was jus pure luck
cuz i know its gonna go back to basic if i were to see u.
i dunnoe how is it gonna be when sch reopen..anyways go with the flow yeah?

anyways im gettin tired..
happy to get back to blogging.

dear darling,rubah im sorry i cant spend time with you alot.
ive been really busy and its difficult for me to meet u cuz u live abit far away
and due to misplacing my ezlink card im tryin to travel nt too far u see.
anyways wish evrything went okay today for you ma.
i love you and u knoe it.
hope u understand me and dun feel tht im forgettin u or dun have time for u.
im jus trying my best to mke time for u darling
hope u understand love u so much baby sis..

okay who else.
oh preethi..
yes i owe a story..
appreciate the concern with ur little sweet text messages.
love u sweethart.

dunnoe where my duck go also.
i miss my duck also.

Punch her right in the face

2010-06-19T18:30:00.002+08:00

ok thats the latest picture with her=))

holz are about to end like in another one week=(

well i thought evrything is gonna be like over.
THE "WAR"
between me and her.
oh fuck no i was wrong.
she has started her shit right back last night.
i wonder whther its due to the seasons.hehs.

yeap goin orchard with her should have been the last thing im suppose to do.
right knowing her damn fugly attitude i should had brough my aunt along which would have made things much much easier for me.

okay those who roughly got the idea who it is then good for you
those who don't ,its alright its not that important thought thats the major thing which annoys and makes me want to punch her.
im sorry i shouldnt say such things about her but man being nice and soft never helps.
i have to scream wail and shout at her.specially her =.=

lol in june today is the first day i studies awhile=p hehs
im kinda missing mahes anneh alot

okay and im jelous.jelous about this someone who used to be super close to me.
now got girl never keep much contact.but im totally happy that this someone got his perfect match she is super sweet and humble .she dun have the bitchyness i see in manni.
i like her actualli.but imjus jelous=))
but im okay ..=D

after a million

2010-06-15T12:54:00.005+08:00

wow..Blog looks nice now.

it look me onli 15 minutes to change it
it was super easy to do it witha little help from the blog iitself.
yeah there is this new thing which helps itself.lols sounds weird but yeah=p

anyways.Thought of blogging..updateS?
too manni actually

got back with alot of long lost friends.
haven talked to bavani she has been busy.
and she really has to know her consequences..
wht she doin now is not wht i like.she bter tke cre.im worried.
love u..hope she reads this..

okay wht else.
heard u were sick too jus like me.ahhahaha.
ok im so mean=p

soccer fever has GOT into me.lols.=s
having Fever.
Thanks to those has been really concern and constantly messaging me and checkin on my health=)

and wht else.
im gonna miss my mahesh annna alot.
wil mis those time when ull shout at me jus for the fun of it cuz u wanted to see me jerk.
callin me for no reason jus to disturb me,
making sure im always safe..
tke cre dearest one..love u alot anneh..
uve got to stop getting angry !! cant wait for u to be back..

marmie and shona comin over today hopefullly they dun nag at me to eat more healthier=p
haha.

wht else..ok feelin abit dizzy im gonna rest..goodbye.love all=D
WILL update soon=))

'PRASS'

PREETHIKA

2010-05-27T13:56:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PREETHIKA

okayyy..

u have turn 16..but im sure u still will trip and fall as usual..
haha kidding..

anyways hope ur sweet 16 goes well
thank you so much for evrything u have done for me..

ok the confessing part.
maybe when u r with me..i jus thought u will never leave my side and so i always took it for granted tht u will always be with me..welll ive learnt it.
and always wanted to tell u that u have made many chges in my life.
u r one of my secrets to my success..with all ur love care and concern..im jus gifted to know u,,

i jus wish i cud go back in time and be the way we was..being together.
but no time dsnt wait do they.

but evry single memory spent with u will always be remenbered.

thanks for evrything
i jus wish to be here for u jus the way u was for me.

do tke care and enjoy ur wonderful sweetest 16th
god bless u and gd luck for ur future=)

LOVE U sweets

you

2010-05-23T10:54:00.004+08:00

its easy to say u love someone.its easy to fall in love..
but its always difficult to say goodbye..

this is it.
i see so much.and it freaks me to see these things surrounding..
but the joy u see when u see the smiles of smeone its jus special...

i dun ask for much.but ur smiles jus mean so much..

im sorry we both have much of ego problems.
i didnt wanna have any commitments and thts whye i hid evrything behind close doors.
on the other hand u were jus angry and so u continued life the way u wanted it yet leaving me behind seeing u do this..

right now u r fickle minded..
jus give me back my other half and i wanna leave forever
out of ur sight.

enough of so much drama.
i wanna live the way ive wished.
its a diff ball game

i wanna make changes in my life.
and i will.i knoe i can.
ill never forget you.the memories..
but ive gotta move on cuz u had moved on.

cantt wait for june to help me move forward.

pissssseeddd

2010-04-14T21:04:00.003+08:00

i realise i come here the min i feel fuckin pissed recently
maybe because ive lossed my privacy at facebook having my mum over there=.=
yes my mum has been like seriously on my damn nerves.
i haven been arguin back but jus keeping quiet.
and the more silent i am the more she raises her goddamn crap nonsense

i sometime envy his mum..oh wait my bro and i envy his mum alot.
i envy both his mum and esh parents..

when ive decided to chge for the better i struggle to cuz thse indians are gd to mke u stay for the worst.

the little things which pisses me off

woah...i jus duno when im gonna burst..

i dunnoe where did my little happiness ran too.
yes seeing u in school was a happiness.
but u urself joining them was jus a big hurt.

but its ok.i guess iver no right over u..

i stop wakin u up in the morning
cuz all my morning seems dark.
i thought u wud be there jus the way i was for u.
but no..and u another reason for my hurt

its ok i totally understand cuz i dun understand wht im goin thru

its tooo early for such plans

2010-04-03T14:39:00.004+08:00

okay panguni was jus super hot!enjoyed my whole day there.hehes.
seeing all the long lost cliques were jus sweeet...

yeahh..
and happy birthday priya latha'
cudnt call cuz cudnt find a way to contact you.sorry.
but hope ur 16th birthday party went well at the chalet=D

moving on..
went to akka house yst ..
to well mum was actually planning to throw a party for me at some hotel place and she was talkinakka.
and akka didnt knoe tht i had no clue abt it..came askin me "gal wht theme u wanna put"
i was like"huh enna theme" *was watching movie*
thenn "birthday da"
i looked at mum.mum looked at her.she looked at my bro..hahah funny siah.
then i said i didnt knoe such was goin on.then she felt relli bad she spoiled the surprise..

besides i wasnt in any mood to celebrate any sweetness of the 16 this year..
the funny part was my brother was more excited abt my birthday than me.
he was like feeling "stressed" on wht to wear.what to do to his hair and who to invite..
it was funny yet sickening.lols...yeah but the oni thing i rmber when ppl say birthday is *itouch*
hahas yeahs badli wants an itouch...

anyways...i jus caught up with sleeeeeeepp...
felt soooo fresh after takin nap.and im back with an unhealthy diet and feel so sick..
ive gotta start eating healthier food!!
but no im not giving up my chocolates forr anything.

recently ive lost my concentration for studies..
i better get back on track or im gonna lose it this yr.

itss been a week since i and bro sat to chat or spend time..
yes ah...we were able to catch up yst and today=)but jus awhile..

saturday feels like sunday.thats gd in a way..

currently watching this damn annoying sickk in the head movie =.=

wait one more thing...
waaaaaahh two days back u pissed me off la.
wht the hell is wrong in ur head!!im so angry with you!
cant u jus understand the meaning of one!! 1 ondru! satu! ee!
so sickening knoe u...

anyways my dearest has elanged away.
dunnoe where he went 1 month since i saw him.
hiyah..angry and sad..but i sort of still get life goin..

with so much of love frm the ppl whom i love is the sweetest.
god is love.

adioz

panguni fever

2010-03-23T01:34:00.003+08:00

short post hehx=)

time:1.36am

yyes currently fasting for panguni.
yup carrying milk...and piercing forehead..

sorry dun relli update much..due to lack of time..
packed with work and studies..

no time to facebook too

anyways life is abit exciting and abit annoying.
love has no time to take place so u can forget abt tht,

people wanna get married at the age of 18 shocking but sad.
so much is happening aand has happened in life.i knoe there is more to come..
good or bad ?both.
but so far even though there a bads i think life is quite interesting.
i think mm this yr is gonna be different.i like it..

one thing which upssets me is him and him.
long time since i saw hime.wish he goes for his camp properli and hope he is coping well in life.
and wish he dsnt have much stress at home.
and the other,oh boi jus getting worst by the dae.i cant jus let u go off cuz i care even thought have a major ego problem=.=

anyways wil blog when there is time and mood till then tke cre.

god is love.
bye aall.

geek

2010-02-28T17:20:00.003+08:00

actually i had so much to write
but when i think of it right now nothing is coming to my head

few things went on for this week
it was mahesh anna birthday yst(27th feb)
aswini birthday few days baq too
and i had a chalet to attend plus a 21st birthday to attend plus meet a fren at bukit panjang and to top that i have chemistry paper on monday so my wonderful weekend which was suppose to be like this friday night:swithart's house saturday night:temple then back home chge go for mahesh anna birthday then frm there for chalet then come back sunday but i chged it to a geeky weekend was study study study cancelled all outing didnt go for birthday party and chalet. ALL I DID WAS STUDY. (indrani now u knoe whye i nevr go out=) )

even the girl who knew me for 12years was shocked tht i cancelled all activities=D

yeahhh..
so i think thats it.

the rest of the str

Middle of Nowhere

2010-02-21T10:05:00.001+08:00

my saturday night jus sucked..purely sucked

wait let me rewind back a Lil...
Friday after my tiring cca i rushed home took my shower and sat down for my POA tuition
i was like half dead but still trying myself to keep awake and listen to wht my tutor was saying.
Good thing yeah my POA is getting slightly better=D.Much more effort to be made.
so yeah use lappy after my tuition then fell asleep..Next day which was Saturday went to do some cip.FLAG DAY first few hours i wasn't collecting anything.i was seriously annoyed..Nicko keep telling me to have patience.chua chu kang are full of stingy ppl unlike yew tee ppl they are SO kind..i manage to collect loads of money over there.i was sooo tired..legs were aching..then ard four head back woodlands return the tins then headed home with Mel..

went home talk to deep then took a short nap..
woke up got ready and sadly had to go temple all alone.
but ok la dear nick gave me company all the way.he is freakin sweet la..
and assholic telling me how banglas can be pervert and wht are their weakness.
haaaha..and he was makin shure i reach home safely..
oh after temple felt that i had some peace and quiet in my head..
head to causeway point renew my popular card then bought some thing.and a colour paper.
omg i took and hour to choose one pathetic colour paper.cuz it was special and its was my first time..ill write about this if i make a midnight tonight.or maybe tom morning..we shall see how..
so anyways yea bought few things then head home..

and there everything started.
i hate to go home la like seriously.
ive been planning to maybe stay over cousin's house till my exams are over.
how the hell people expect me to concentrate when all they do is to fight
its seriously sickening.u want to fight and show ur strength do it to smeone on ur own size and dun be a fuckhead.
I HATE ANY FUCKERS WHO HURTS MY BROTHER SO BE IT IF UR HIS BLOODY RELATIONS OR IF U MADE SENSE I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.
AND I'M NOT FUCKING AFRAID OF ANY FUCKERS...im not afraid u'll whack me up
try me try laying Ur hands and i swear i mke u regret ur whole fucking life..i make shure u live in guilt till u die.sorry i sound evil but yeah this dumb assholes at home are just giving me a hard time.Going home is the last thing i want to do in my life.
I jus wanna go somewhere far so i dunned see idiot ppl face evryday.
though im not directly involved.obviously it hurts and annoys me to see such happening ..
sick and tired of this shit which is happening.i just cant wait to get out of here.
thanks to LAN Anna for keeping me accompanied when i needed to talk to someone.appreciate it alot ..

Seriously if any one's planning to annoy me for the next few weeks ill go mad.
not in my self control.dun test my patience.im about to lose it soon.
i know..
thought i have high tolerance i too have my limits..

anyways tom English exams oh GOSH
Ive gotta start revising..
someone mind lending me some knowledge i need some=)

Just need someone to talk to..
actually i wish u were here with me
i miss u

He will always be my valentine?!

2010-02-14T21:20:00.002+08:00

tags replied

humi : =)thanksss once again
sherlin: will link u soon alright.
MR G(indran): indraniii!! i misss u so much=((yesyes meet soonsoon=D

oKay..
yesterday went to mahesh anna's akka house.they did 30 days thingy for the twin babies.
oh boi they looook sooo adorable la..seriously soo cute..hahah so small size smemre.
mahesh anna kept disturbing the baby.haha.fell very zombiyish over there.was actually tired..haven caught up with my sleeeep for 1 week..
oh ganga look super sweeet in orange

but okaay la..then talk to lan..hiyas things hasnt changed for him.hope things get better for him.hate it when he have so much to handle so manny probs..jus wish things get better for him.
and so evryone headed back to woodlands.this lan so mean keeep llaughin at me jus becuz i asked him whther he got camp on monday..idiot=)haha in the train damn funny this shamen keep disturbing those indian ppl in the train,so mean la..then this thinesh also giving him ideas.they all had a mini drinkin session under some block.
owh sorry didnt tell who .

they = Priya darshini,Priya ravindran,Jays,Shamen,Deep,Thinesh and my self.
yeap..then stupid ppl throwing things from ontop.and these ppl makin a fuss abt it.
haha.then talk talk talk 12am started to wish evryone happy valentines.
hahaha this thinesh was the most excited one..he all the way counting down to how manny minutes left to midnight.then we all left like around 1plus..
send jays and company off .then me deep and shamen walked baq..

go baq home took shower then watch t.v then sleep.
aaahss tired..

tom must get baq to geekyself and study=p

foundmyself a new name. GEEEEEKKK=)

anyways,wish he will stop smoking soon.
loved.

my valentine's spent with you.
whhtelse could i ask for.
i love you so much and yea im covering up=p

GEEKY

2010-02-11T21:56:00.002+08:00

time-check:9.57pm

k first ive gotta mention about this person i knoe.
stop acting like as if u r the oni one who makes sense and the rest dont.
they are much wiser then u .and stop whatever u r doin.cuz it might seem right to u
but IT IS NOT.
im writting this here cuz if i were to tell u this..u wud eventually start quarelling.
im jus saying it from my point of view thats all.not to insult or to hurt u.
u r my fren so im jus saying it.end..

k getting baq.
gaahhh ive been spending much more then im suppose to beD=
AND I FEEEEEEELLLL SOOOO GEEEEEEEEEEKKKYYYY
haven been goin out at all!ive beeen spending quality time with books exercises and worksheet.
i feel so lifeless lahs..so i felt very bad and i told bestie.
that idiot making fun of me keep tellin me ive always been a geeek..
so mean right..oh btw u sound so scary when u wake up from ur sleep=)
anyways today went home at six ..watch watching t.v awhile then showered.
jus after showering i played soccer with bro.how dumb.
jus awhile oni la.haha.

then he went out so did i with my idiotass!i miss her so much la
its beeen mths since i saaw her.so we went walkwalk then went to have dinner=)
and i saaw joker over there=p.i jus turn and walk .didnt wanna see his face..

misssssssssss my idiottt indran!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=(((((
owe u mac smre..Hope u r doin fine and not skipping sch=p

wht else.
wah when i was jus about to be strong
as in like know where is my stand and have less distractions
and there we have a winner u r baq..when we had less communications i was okay.
grrrrrrr wht do i say now/ i dunno

__

yoU mAKe mE so Jealous=D

short post

2010-02-08T21:00:00.002+08:00

time:9.02

yes.Studying with timetable
dun play play

lol i feeeel geeeky studying almost evryday oh wait.
yes studying evryday,goin baq home after school.
oficially feel for those ppl who go home straight after sch or arent able to go out.

well its difficult for a person like me .
speciallly with so manni ppl always there to meet up after school
or the sweetheart television staring at me
and the one thing i cannot keep off MY PHONEE!

today ive started new..
wooo.i feel good
though i hate to go home..
and i dunno how long i gonna stay here..might shift to cousin place to stay till exams over.
too much distractions at home
m.fuckers=D
bro have been helping me in studies!shockin but yeah.wahaha

all my loved one all having problems,.
hiyah wish evrything gets better for them too.
cant really blog everyday.
laptop in parents room now.thanks to bro for leaving the laptop on for three whole days.
arghhhh

hate to go home,thts my main thing for now.
i feel so annoyed to step in u knoe.
i used to love home missed home when i used to go out.

but now..bitchness and fuckup attitude which feels the house
sickening but yes gotta go through it*silently*

miss my dear lan..hope is okay now.
hiass..

and my dear rubah sweets.

and the rest.
alll la having problems.
poor thing laa..

ooohh tivya birthday ended
so did dylan's my cousin bro.his bd parrty was great!
mahesh anneh birthday comin!!
woooo so is my common test bleah..

i miss my love..
dun ask whye=)
p.s dun stalk me=p

know what i dun care about you much.
as like if u wan u come back to me.
yes i stil love u.but i dun care if u were to see another woman=)
and i feeel gooood now.having u less in my life gives me less distractions=)

mESSy

2010-01-27T22:10:00.003+08:00

time-oh:10.14

Some time certain things in life jus inspires you.
And the same thing might annoy smeone else..
IVE learnt tht.

And anger never helped..

Yes it hurts smetime to see u in school with the other.
but ive learnt to jus move on.

misunderstanding with the ppl u love can be heartbreaking.
yeah .but hope they get to knoe the truth la....

and i miss him alr.like so much=)
laann!

nijangal now!!

Positive thinking

2010-01-26T15:54:00.004+08:00

TIME-CHECK:3.55PM

ASHIKIN-thankss babe
ayu-ahaha better tke cre..and thanksss=D
TAUFIQ-YEAAA ur watch is fineeee..and return u alr laa..=)watch is happy

okieeee

yst evening was effed up till my dearest ones came over..hhaha
mahesh and lan these ppl are crazzyy
lann started to do my tamil n level booklet all.
while mahesh anneh starts shouting and scaring me for the fun of it.
end of the day they never let me sudy in peace.
they are so much love.thanks lan and mahesh for evrything=D
P.S LAN can never say a story properli..wahaha.

anyways yeap thatt made my day.
the things they did yst was jus damn funny.it cover up the horrible thing which happen in the evening.yes ,,,fucked up home.sorry.

anyways.
todayay..
hahah P.E has been relliii enjoyable..
laughin like mad till i literally roll on the floor and laugh .
yes the best people to play while slackin and imitating ppl while they run.
tivya jolyn humi hahaha..i was jus laughin like sme mad kid being released from hospital..
hahhah..relli that made me day too..i laughed till my tummy hurts=D

then wht..hmmm
boring lessons..but with tivya ard it was relli.
had a small nap during english=d bala selvan=p
physics amzingly ive put in effort today to listen and do on my own.*self praise*
anyways.i feel happy i went home straight after school=)

AND GUESS WHAT.
im doin a good job in stayin postive.
look at my post.evrything seems happy ..haha.
shud stat doin this more often,.

AND ONE MORE THING!!
humi bought me chocolates cuz i was sad thats like crazy sweeeet la..i appreciate alot..seriosly alot.
and plus she bought me two pens..cuz i was complaining tht my pens arent working.
like who wud have thought abt tht la..swweeeet ehs..thanks humi

i think thats abt it.
love all.
bye

cant wait to go zoo.yay?
lols..

KALKIEEEEEESSSSWAARAAAAN I MISSSSS UUU

i'm not angry with you.to my stalker=D

she turns 18

2010-01-23T20:55:00.002+08:00

This post is a SPECIAL one.

Happy Birthday To My Shona Sayang.

Heys.
my sweetest wishes to my dearest.
I wish you have a wonderful year ahead
Thank You for all those advice i needed when i was crushing and thrashed to the ground.
Every single sec i spend with u is the sweetesT and the most memorable ones
And those time when i wanted to run away thanks for the support and advices to make me stay in control.and knowing u is a gift I'm telling you.
not everyone cud get to know u and be so close to u.
I'm so lucky to have you in my life.
i love u so much .
no word cud describe how much i love u .
Just wanna let u know that I'm always here for u.
we have gone through much.
yes those small little misunderstandings but u know what that's what which makes our bond stronger
and you know it yourself that I'm here for you and always will be!
this is a small way of appreciating you sayang.
i love u =)

all in yellow just the way you want it=D

pain in the heart

2010-01-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

time-check:10.10pm

KALKIESWARAN ELAGOWEN

two years since my dearest left this world.
many shed tears two years back.
and i am still crying till today.
for i can never get over it.
no matter how much i try.
it hurts so badly.
i relli dunno who to tell or how to tell it.
he mean so much to me i really cnnt tke this.

i misss himm soo mucchh.
i love u bro.
i relli wish u r in good hands now.
wish u keep smiling.
jus the way u was.
the oni once i saw u not smiling when u left.
hias.
it fucking hurts me so much.
i cnnt find my way out.
and time is not healin anything.
words cnnt describe how i feel.
noone cud mke me feel better.

i wish i had a shoulder to lean on.
i love u like my own brother.
rest in peace anna.
i love u.
u will always be the one and only esh.
and noone can replace u no matter what
and u will always be my first then the rest comes

i jus wish i cud see u once.
give u a big hug.
man i wonder how wud i be if i were to see u now.
wud have run towards u crrying.
tellling u how much i missed u and how much of problems in life
and how much life sucks without u.
and most of all how much i love u..
hias.i guess its long gone.
babybro i llove and and always will!

tke cre.

last night's nightmare

2010-01-19T21:42:00.004+08:00

time-check:9.49pm

black and white.
yes i cried last night.
and yes its been a year since i cried like that.
cause i had my limits.
and when i start to stretch my limits.by keeping quiet and not bloating.
this is wht i end up with.
i dun wanna go back to yst.
but trust me.I wanted someone beside me.anyone would have been good.

And a wrong time to have a misunderstanding with her.
but lucky the right we way said was to stop talkin last night so tht it dsnt mke our situations worst.
but she aint the reason why i cried.
my reasons ARE...
for the past few years.
so if i were to write it here.
u wud cry along.its okay.i rather mke ppl happy then cry.
let my sorrows stay with me.i dun wanna mke ppl worry..

my bro can be really supportive and loving.
yesterday he was the sweetest thing.
so much love in wht he told me.
and i kinda start lookin up to you more recently.
loving u more actually.i sense smth not right recently with u.
u seem more stressed up i wish things get better..

and to my 2nd bro.
i cnnt imagine life without u.
when deep told me abt the accident.
i was soo shocked.hias.i pray hard nth happens to u and u stay safe.
i love u so much bro.

ok wht else.
oh five days since i fell sick.
i dun seem to be recovering.
and whye cuz i got no time to tke my medications.
haha elan so cute msg me evry morning to tke me medicine.

People have been showing me more attention recently.
people have been more caring towards me.
its nice but at the same time i wonder whye.
how true it is?wht do they want from me?
or isit my love i shown so far is comin baq in return.
but its nice to have manny around in such a time

its gonna be two years since esh left tom
20th january 2007 at 1.03am
evrything chged.
i miss u bro.
rest in peace

sick

2010-01-14T21:09:00.001+08:00

time-check:9.23

not feeling well..
ahiya.whye siah.
my cough is killing me.
evrytime i cough like smeone is stabbing a knife into my heart!
it hurts...
i hate to be sick.
i cant affors to skip lessons.
one day of work missed,and pooof ill go mad when i return to school
its hard to catch up day's work..seriously thats the speed we r moving in.

with this puffy eyes.
with unsteady legs.
with a head which feels like smeone is takin a hammer to hit on.
and a cough which is relli killing my throat.relly sucks
i still walk to school to and fro
exception today where i took a taxi to school.
cuz i missed my bus and i was too weak to walk=D
YES ITS STUPID TO TAKE A CAB WHEN UR HOUSE IS ONI 10MINS WALK AWAY

Anyways preethika's leg was injured.as usual she keeps her eyes behind when she walks.
yeah she is turninn 6 oni..
anyways hope she recovers fast.

continuin
yesterday during english lesson

mrs bala selvan : class we dun use the letter "z" as we follow the british and not the americans
prass:so we dun use them at all?
mrs bala selvan: yes.if u use it.u wud be pinalize.
the guy sitting beside me sing siag: SO TEACHER,ZEBRA AND ZOO WE SHALL PRONOUNCE AS SEBRA AND SOO..???HAHAHAHAHA
mrs bala selvan:*blank face*

damn fuckin lame but damn funny la..

HAHAHHAHA..
THANKEW xue min,christine,aswini,chanthini,sangeetha,emel,humi and many more for takin care of me today.appreciate it alot..

and yes i jus lost my voice.due to screamin at the top of my voice jus three mins ago.
yes.smetime i wonder whther was it a rule to stay in the house u were born from.weird thought but yeah.

so tom if i do not speak but smile im not arrogant.
im jus covering up my stupid problem=D

teachers are so unpredictable

sweetest addiction

2010-01-11T22:33:00.003+08:00

time-check:10.36pm

disappointments plus shocking news..

congrats to uma mageswari and sangeetha mogan for doin well

preethika not to worry.hope u work harder and do better the next time round

for my dearest one.
yes this is ur secound try.
maybe this is jus not ur thing.
more then anyone i was affected most.
being in between ur hurt and parents hurt.
trying to mke u and parents feeling better at the same time
not a easy thing to do i say.stuck in between.cryin silently
yes it hurts more then expressed.

and oh boi.
my syang not fine..hias hope evrything gets better

lan,yes heard abt the bad news..hope u get over it.
its easy to say but u goin thru it yes it hurts.
wish i cud help.but no matter wht others say u wudnt hear it.
cuz u r not in tht state of mind
tke cre brother.i love u so much

Spend it wisely

2010-01-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

woaahhh

ALL i needed was a friday night all to myself.
to sleep

shocked?
thought i was about to say goin out late at night..
NO.
i needed sleep.
regained energy after a good night sleep last night.
4sleepless nights due to work in school.
and my god.i jus need some rest.

my room is baq to neat and tidy=D.
Studying when noone's home is totally good.

evrything went almost well today.

and sad to say my saturday is gone=(

anyways.
im starting to miss u more evryday esh.
hope ur in good hands.
i love u so much bro.

2010-01-08T20:57:00.004+08:00

i writting in with a bad mood.
im hungry
im annoyed.
im tired
im having a headache
my whole body aches.
im sleepy too

first week of sch was a unexpected packed week.
yes..i didnt had time to blog.
mumz birthday
thanks to love and my clasmates..wudnt have manage to do it without ur helps.

and really,thanks alot love for wakin up so early to come over to help me out.
appreciate it alot.

so manny things has happened.
i always get to bed at 1plus.
wakin up at 5.45
haven caught up with my sleep.
and food??oh my god.
i barely had three meals a day this week
ive been skipping meals cuz i have no time to eat.
that sucks but i dun have a choice.

when i come home today.
damn pissed with her damn attitude.

u leave me wondering tonight.
when i saw ur eyes.i was like.
wht the hell was i thinking?forgetting the past?no way.
yes.
not to worry ill find my own solution to get out of this crap.

anyways dead tired.
gonna crash to bbed early

nights.

Party of the year

2009-12-30T20:54:00.005+08:00

one day for this year to end.
And its the beginning of a new year.

And this is when evryone starts changing.
Changes is good.As far as it dsnt go too wild..

Im gonna party till midnight,
and when i start my new yr.
its all gonna be new and different.

two things to control in life is
DESIRE AND ANGER.

with tht i think many problem cud be solved actually

Tom night's gonna be a blast

But i keep havin this feelin in my heart.
like i dun wanna move forward.
and its been two yrs since esh left.
and hurt has never moved away as far as i know.

Right now.Im finding for that peace in me
I feel so complicated,'
HELP ME'

Dont follow me

2009-12-29T01:31:00.003+08:00

The sweetest and sour one.
i still love u bro

time-check:1.35am

Not sleepy
and have somethings to accomplish exactly at 3am

so yea.
when some falls ill.
u would say "get well soon"
or least say nth.
well it was e first i heard.
it was.u know how many time she have seen the doc in a month

everyone asked my two weeks baqq.
my relatives.
they asked.."hows amma?"
"hows things at home"
"how mum now"
"hows everything"

and my answer was yeah everything is good going fine.yes yup good.
but i silently spoke to myself.
everyone is fine except me.
does that count?i dun think so

even some1 whom i knew for long.
didn't get what i was going through.
But its good in a way.
she dun worry much.

anyways.
yes I'm not well.
physically and mentally.
heart feels heavy.
i realise it happens every single night.
cant help it neither cud i avoid it.

I do not see the point.
i dun see the worth.
its nth useful.
but its there.
hurt.yes that.

sorry tonight.
i end it with no ending or a solution.
i wish i had one

Happy Birthday Baby

2009-12-28T12:46:00.004+08:00

time:12.55pm

Today is my switiepie's birthday
sadly she went to malaysia.so i cnnt meet her.
but i called her at 12 .a call from spore to malaysia.oh boy wish my bill dsnt rise.
anyways yea
.but in her house over there was onli 11.54pm
so i dun cre.cuz she's a spore baby=D
SO I WISHED HER FIRST=)
anyways.
happy birthday swithart.
thanks for evrything.
when i thought my life was jus over and there's nth i cud do abt.
u were there for me.u showed me life wasnt ending.
thanks for all the care,love and concern.
ive known u for almost 12 years.
and yes i treasure it alot.12 years !its a big thing.
we gone through thick and thin.
but we have made our bond stronger each time we fight.
i love u baby sis.As promised i will alwys be there for u..
i love u=)

so went to buy uniform with taufiq and vineeth today morning at 9am
feel very annoyed to wke up so early.
later mus go see doc..neck swell like mad.very pain..hias..

and thanks bavani for the concern too.
love u so much.i Love eu

i can go on and on.
ive so manny ppl to thank.
too many actually.
i jus wish i had to thank evry single one who had helped me so much.
i will and always will appreciate...thanks evryone.

strong shoulder i wanna lean on

2009-12-27T23:23:00.003+08:00

time-check:11.23pm

ok singapore idol.

next

the minute they left my house
uma and chan.
they brought my happiness along.

Sometimes i wish i had jus one full day spending with sweetest most loved ones
I jus wan a shoulder to lean on.To cry it out.
yes crying nver solves anything.i knoe that.
But it helps me let out some of the bleed inside.
Sometime thats when people start searchin for a partner in life.
to love,to be loved,to care,to be cared.
right now.
im indeed searching for a place for peace and love.
im not talkin abt bgr .nt tht kind of love.
jus peace and love.
Pure.

No matter how much i try.I jus Cant find it.
it leaves me tht momment i step into the "hell"
or when angels leave the "hell"
u wudnt possibly understand.
but those who do.that mean u truly care for me..much appreciated thanks.
those who dun and tried to ..also appreciated.

anyways.
Right now.i wish i was with him.
Ive repeated this million time and never got tired of it.
when im with him,i never cared a single bit cuz i knew he will always be there for me to lean on.
and now he aint there.
he is gone forever.he lives in my heart .
but he jus aint there for my let it out.

evryone cud hang in there to a certain limit.
I have been stretching them.
i jus wish evrthing comes to an end

thanks for listening

Snow flakes

2009-12-25T19:06:00.002+08:00

Merry christmas..

and yes ive found out u werent okay.
wow my instinct getting better by the day.
today was abit annoyed..
smth gotten into my momma.
she is getting weirder by the day..

oh man i jus wish evrything falls in place next year
jus the way ive planned it
for studies and for friends and specially saving up
i jus realise ive spent more than what im suppose to during my holz.
goin out evryday is jus not fun and entertaining its at the same time..money drains out=p.
lucky i dun smoke..like those ppl spent 10dollars on it.pfft.waste of money.

anyways.
school is gonna reopen.
ive gotta sort things out at home.
ego and anger.
ive gotta give in jus like wht chanthini said.
i gota listen to her.she makes alot of sense actually.
man i miss them all..

im so hungry right now..

so sad this year.family didnt have an outing for christmas.
i better make sure new year be a blast.it better be.
i love them all thought smetime big family mean big problems=)

okay whtelse.
did loadz of shopping.
not gonna throw away old ones.
jus gonna mix and matchh.
im not done buying.still got few more..

and for my school bag..its sucha headache.

and something is wrong with my next..
it hurts badly ..
mum since she is a nurse.
she says when u fall sick realy badli and dunno wht explanation she gave u got the pain.
and this pain is killing me.oh boy go awayy laaa..
but im not sick ..im perfectly fine..jus dun get the thing..

anyways .
evryone got drunk last night.so did he..

and i did a mistake yst.i jus wish it dsnt create a problem in the future.

adioz.

the post u thought wud be long but isnt

2009-12-24T21:05:00.005+08:00

crazy holidays.

Actually had so much to write.
sso i got lazier each day to write.

cuz i went malaysia with my switie for a week.more than a week actually
and sooo much happen....
we went through thick and thin.
i had a great time with her.and man i miss that place
those ppl are so sweeet.i love them
cnnt wait to go there..
the three days was jus sweeeet!!

the day i came baq..
i started goin out..
i slept like around 12am or 1am wake up ard 11am then go meet this fren that fren..
i try to meeet evryone whoever wants to meet.cuz from next yr..
less enjoyment more studying.cnt play with n levels.
gotta concentrate and prove some assholes that i can do well academically too.
ive gotta stay focus..

and i posted after manny ppl tellin me to update
so here u go.

And..next year its gonna be different.
im gonna be different.
Very different actually
think twice before i say or do.

And lovE.Not for the next two years.
no time for it.nor no time to Wait for ASSHOLES.
i jus learnt my lesson yesterday that many change for the worst and its stupid of me to wait
ive waited for 3yrs and thats it.byebye..

Im sorry to anyone who was hurt by my words.
sincere sorry(s) to everyone.
never meant to hurt anyone.

i believe and love =)
tke cre all.

my dear one came out,but hasnt met up with me
he told me he wud call..he hasnt.it has been a week.
bro i miss u so much.where are u?

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVRYONE

i feel the same way about u when u felt about me when u was 13

2009-11-27T21:28:00.003+08:00

time-check:9.31pm

okay today is one of my special day..
the day which was spent only with my loved ones.
and i knew how much i really love him=)

okay lets start from last night.
last night a fight broke out..
and it was abit more for my brain to give up hope on patience and to screw evryone and walk out of the house not with any intention to go baq.
evryone have limits.
and comeon im hurt enough at home
and chanthini said " u are so differen when u r at home and outside..u seem so happy outside"
totallt agreed.
right now happiness is in the outside world baq to my story

so since i was controlling myself and since i kept quiet i started cryin...
i do tht when my mum starts crying.
okaay.so yea.
i had to talk to smeon and cool it.
orelse i knoe i wud have gone literally mad.
so yea..msg uma first she kept me occupied relli appreciate it..

nesh was sso much love ..
the minute i told him.he came over my house.
crazy la..but yea he came over at 11.30pm plus.
then talk to me..and seriously he was so much of love
talk talk..thanks so much=)appreciate alot da.
oh wait then poor boy was soo sleepy and sick he fell asleep..
jus got no words to say abt u la..
thank you so much prettyhead.he left i think around 1.30am
i owe u=)and if u still rmber twoo years time if u rmber thiss day then ill tell u
get well soon tke cre of urself!

whtelse
afternoon went to meet mahesh anneh azmi and deep at causeway
haha disturb azmi like crazy!
then keep tellin mahesh anneh not to get angry...anger management problem la he.

then they went out i went bukit panjang went to esh anna house.it his birthday today
went there..spent my time therew with amma appa.yea i call esh anna parents tht..
cuz i treat esh like my own blood bro..so yea...watch movie ..
talk talk....i made evryone there happy.i saw everyone.

except my dear esh anneh..missin u so much..sitting on ur sofa right exactly where u sat.
missed evrything..evrysingle thing i see in ur house jus reminds me of the things u do when i came ur house evry single time i was free..and it still hurts to knoe u r not here anymore.
i still cnnt accept u aint here anymore.
i miss u..
and we used to plan when i turn 16 and then u turne 21 on the same yr.we wanted to do smth
this yr my dear esh turns 20.happy birthday bro.
the one who i will always respect and love.
death cant do us part.
ull always be loved and rmbered by me.
time will never heal this hurt i carrry tht u r no more.
till my last breath ill love u .as promised ill always love u bro.
rest in peace.dun worry..takin good care of ur parents.they are fine.
vicsona and gowri akka and anna are fine too.
tke cre of ur self.and next time jus be more careful pa.

didnt had heart to leave the house but had to.
went home took shower.
uma and chan came all e way to my house to fetch me then we went to temple
pray hard..did prayers for esh .
felt better after tht.
chanthini was relli nice to be with.
uma was jus there for me.always had been there for me actually

then we left to causeway
send ma sayang baq..saw john with loadz of ppl
changed alot.sighs.
anyways went mac with umz..
saw john bro steven and pristina.
after tht umz went out with momo
when i and umz went to eat...started to eat she jus woke up went to tke curry sauce for me.
my fav ..usualy i prefer curry sauce then chilli sauce.cnt believe she rmber this..thats crazy sweet.
love u darleeng
i went baq..

and today u mke me realise so much.
i look at u more then wht we are now.
whye?i dunnoe.but i love u.
so much.

and thanks to those who cared so much.
i lovee al

She dun feel the same way u feel

2009-11-24T19:19:00.003+08:00

time-check:7.27pm

every photo gives a certain type of memory i believe.
some its good smetime its jus not the way u wanted it..
i dunno whther u felt it.but i felt it today.
when i msged u.i didnt get a reply.i guess u have moved on.
its nth wrong moving on.but have u forgotten ur past?
i believe u have forgotten it all.

today i had a very heavy heart.and i thought why.
i didnt do anything wrong.i didnt get aangry.
i got nth to worry as exams are over.
then whtelse.i think ive got the answer.
the people my people has moved.

isit worth..arent evryone worth?
why cnt evryone jus share..why do they jus wanna grab those who give me happiness.
i jus dun get it..i relli dun see the point in takin away someone special treasure..
well i guess this is life.and nth is permenant.
i love evryone except him.
so tht when i die i dun die with a regret that ive forgotten to show my love to a person or so.
i try my very best to mke the best out of it..

k lets change it..
i post the letter to my dear joshuel pravin vinson.
hias..missing him so much..

cnnt wait for dec 6 when lan comes out.

so manny things happen in soo little time.

like i told uma.
i dun have anything to worry about but i have a heavy heart i dunno why.?
but seriously if i have done anything wrong.im relli sorry cuz i didnt mean anything which hurts others..maybe it was out of anger out of love.or jus cudnt tke u moving on..or jus u betraying me.
betrayal might not be the right word actually..

and my fever is really making me feel so weak.
i feel so sick i could barely carry thingss.
this fever is one of the worst i ever had.
get well soon>? nnehs not happening.

i jus dunnoe whye
i miss u so much..
when im not suppose to.
i think its jus my stupid mentality which tells me i love u.
but my brain tells me its jus affection.it aint true.
it aint true.
u hurt me.u are not meant to be.
but ill stay by ursside
i cnnt imagine ur life being ruined.
dunnoe whye but so.

splendid!

2009-11-23T21:48:00.004+08:00

time-check:9.49pm

okaaay soo much happened
ive been having a crazy holiday!
=) good and BAD...

khayy i went out so much i cnnt rmber when and where i went..
but the latest things was i met umz then went bugis to do mini shopping then went all the way to vivo to meet umy then went to cck to stay in cousin sister house for seven days.ha..
i had great fun la..

evryday i eat outside food la..
pizza hut,causurina,mac,subway, dunno where all we went to eat..

i had a great time with dhinesh!!! he wasss relllli the sweetest la..

umy and chandini came over to my cousin plazce jus to meet me...missed them so much la!
i relli had a great time with all my loved ones..

except lan and mahesh who isnt ard..
went it...grrrrrr.miss them la..
specially lan..hias..

and boi im missing yu sooo much...
essshh ur bd coming mus go ur house..

wait i forget

last last saturday i played poker from 12am till 5.45am then 6 went with my three broz drive to buy breakfast then go out with whole family.damn fun sial...
then previpus saturday came this time at cck..we play poker like mad siah !!! whole night...
play saturday and sunday night...damn fun sia

now im not feeling well..
hiaaaaayaaah
high fever.head spins crazily

saturday ill be off to malaysia with my babe!rubah swithart!!
cnnt wait man,,gonne have a splendid time at malaysia with her..
its gonne be a blast=D

Sometime i jus dun understand my bestfriend.
i jus get yu...for a minute u are the nices sweetest person
and the other u dun talk to me...and u tell me some misunderstandin happened between u and him but u didnt tell me wht isit? U R suppose to keep me upddated...cuz the way we are?i jus dunno ...it jus seems im always puttin in my effort always makin the first move.
when wud u ever realise this.i wonder..
i jus wish u were like how u ussed to be..which aint gonna happen..isnt it

fortune

2009-11-11T21:09:00.002+08:00

time-check:9.14pm

have been getting angry easily lately
frustrations..stress..anger..
omg wht did i do...

and i think i knoe...

so i went to a this future thing.
i dun wanna elaborate...

wait i wanna write so much
but im soo annoyed i jus dunwanna scream things out.

and im soo angry withmyself.

unable to spend time with my loved ones.
im really sorry

UMZ,UMY,CHAN SYG,VIDETTE.
missin u all so much.
im relli sorry...i haven been meeting u all
i think u all knoe whye too...
im really sorry but ill meet u all realli soon..

and my dear lan got injured..
hias...cudnt u be jus more carefull
love u and miss u so my lan.

and i jus realise.
the closer i am to a person i tend to fight more.
and the one who break through it has been my real true frens.
and yes for tht i appreciate and love

super shagg.

heavy heart.

rubah darleeng
i miss u soooooo muccchhhh
thanks forr evrything
yesy im on e phone wit u..

and for u.
u havve been gone.
nnot a word not a msg not a thought.
and whye?let me say its because u dun give a fuck
u dun cre.
all u care is ur life ur frens ur galfren who u r not true to.
and i hve beeen nice standin byurside all the while..
not evry story has a happy ending..so yea...get a life.
im not there when u realli need me..

nick dun worry
believe in karma
losers will get their ass kicked one day!
part and parcel alright tke cre!

uP ThrusT

2009-11-06T11:36:00.003+08:00

TIME-CHECK: 11.37AM nthin exciting has happen thats whye haven been bloggiin beside tht my laptop is giving me a hard time!!! internet connection gone mad. and wht ive been doin alot of thinkin abt this whole year.wht went wrong or where are the mistakes..and i realise there manny things have repeated and i fell into it twice. and evrything is the same jus one more thing..someone to die. yes when smeone i knoe dies then ppl from nowhere come baq to me and live the same normal life. and i will be the idiot who will jus follow on blindly.thats wht ive realise And i hope next year it dosent happen again. i dun cre if i had u but i dun wan another close one of mine to die so anyway that was that anyways cousin brother comin over tonight! and prass!cmeon write a letter and mail it to ur dearest. he misses u as much as u do! dun delay it! tom mus go sembwang. they r doin nisha's birthday! cant wait=) might be stayin over there..see how=) not forgettin tom morning there is cca=p thank you priya for evrything. thanks for the book to it relli did help my mum. thanks alot.WILL be remembered and appreciated. khay got to get ready for my tuition at marslling..hias tired.. know u . as i think more of you i jus reali u aint worth. though my mind knows u r nth but the same as the rest of the guy population i still find it hard to forget.but when i think of u ,i feel frustrated i dun see love in but the other way round. u treat woman like candy bars and that is whye relationship never lasted that is whye the woman u loved dearly never wanted u. arrogance is ur mirror image..

Not a reply,
and i made the right guess.
when u r with a girl im invisible
when a girl dumps u or u dump her or u have noone u come to me.
but i still accept u baq.
do u realise tht.?
i dun think so

Grow up

2009-11-02T18:42:00.003+08:00

time-check:6.42pm

soooooo letme think

Friday wht happen?
went to schoool last day didnt seem to be like last day i knoe whye
then went home slack home then mr nesh came over
had some lil misunderstandin with him and his annehlove
then cuz of tht smth else happen
sorry cnnt write here wht..of cuz im not spoilin my bestfrens face here.lols.
khay

soooo ......
i have the dame attitude u have.
i have the same ego problem as u.
and i seiously think its not ur fault.
and cme on sucha a small thing and she wants to fight.
i dunno wht to say...im angry at her cuz she made u angry..
and dun hurt urself..it jus doesnt help..and im always here for u asshole.
tke cre
anything jus call.=)lovess.

oh btw thanks for dropping me =)

then wht.
went cca in the morning=)
saturday night went for sme birthday party at some place
my momma was dressed up..she was sooooo gorgeous..
=) picturess and pictured..we took alot !!
haa..then after tht she drop me at amk.
went to stay over cousin bro house=)had fun=)

sunday mum's husband birthday
went swensense whack oni..lols..
ice cream madness=D! THEN went granmother house
after tht come baq wdls..talk to mahesh anneh ahile then go homee=)
tiredddd..

then todayy went meet taufiq after his soccer
then me him vikram went to eat at kfc..so much of stories to talk abt
viki damn funny siah..then viki had to leave me and taufiq went to study at library
after tht after tht he send me to bustop 903 ..
taufiq made me loose two buss .!! fuckin whore laa hee.haha.
but thnx for the company

after tuition went home
chats ..
ok

PERSONNAL??
like as if im gonna tell e whole world right.
me onli..unless u think im not trustworthy la.
and i dint wanna tel u cuz i didnt knoe how to ...
okhey.i got to get goin.

i cnt rmber whther i wrote abt me goin bowling wit bro and so yes i went bowling too
had great fun=)

Misunderstood

2009-10-29T15:28:00.003+08:00

time-check: 3.28pm

oh my god i missed out alot..

khay aanyways first thing
my colours do nt relate to the person for my previous post.
i jus realise tht..cuz nisha asked me whther it was smeone is specific/hell no its not.
i dun wannna have a misunderstanding with u.cuz we had one.and we are still if im not wrong.
cuz it doesnt to be like how it was.maybe u nver liked me.i dunnoe la.i dun force.its k.im sorry if the
me and u aare history post hurt u..cuz it wasnt u..jus informing u..

khay.lets start new.

i missed out few things.
didnt blog..now i havve to recal...

yesterday went for the ogl thingy which i didnt wanna relli go .
went with tivya..chats with her..
then after the very long interview i headed to cuaseway to meet up with tuafiq at the library
we studied with mr tan there till 5.30pm
then taufiq followed me to mac..i bought double chocolate!like after million years.heh..
then we talk talk like real alot..
then he was soo sweet enuf to miss a bus jus to send me baq first..
he is relli damn cute la....love u bitch! thanks for evrything=D

headed home took my shoowerrr then went darling house around 6.40pm
watched movie while mumz was doin exercise..umz mumz damn cute laa.hahaha
and mumz did my quiz in my facebook omg she got almost evrything correct!i was shocked!!
hahaha..then laugh like crazy at video we watch but *him*
then we saw a picture with all of themm oh my god like wad oni the pic.damn funy!
i haddd greaaaat fun with her!! laughed like crazy...less stress now=)
left around 9.30pm.went home sleeep

next dae today...

went school c.i.p
crazy mch of fun !!
hahahahaha..taufiq wass like all e way talkin talkin keep me accopanied.
so was luqman,fauzi and vineeth..
then they went to play soccer i went home showered since it was freakin hot
my athai was home..talk to her awhile then went to meet darleeng
went subway for lunch..spend time with her ..chats\..
we were laughin and laughin..actually aall the time im wif her i laugh laa
lols...anways catch up with her with stuff.
and atlast she feels the same way i do..
send her to library then i went home

very sleepy and exhausted.
im gonna spend my time watching television.
adioz=D

and pamela is not well still!!
grrrr...curse e flu..
dun worry dearest! ull get well soon
pray the best for u...hope nth serious.
dun wry no h1n1 all k..
loveeesss

short post

2009-10-27T16:09:00.003+08:00

It'd be no surprise if you fell for one of your close guy friends! You value your friends more than anything so a relationship with one of them would be the perfect fit for you! It may take a little while to get it right but once you do, it's smooth sailing on the love boat!

wait this junk .. came with a long story..
so as usualy went to facebook went to my cousin sister profile and saw
500comments on this quz.i was like shocked..like ive never seen tht before.
it was abt love thingy dunno wht.didnt see properli
then since i was waiting for smeone to call
in the meanwhile i did the quiz.
and then results came out..right at tht time he called.
hahahah damn crap la... but trust me this is jus junk .it aint true .

khay im getting annoyed with myself
stayin home.
straight after school.

k baq to rotting with my television=D

me and you? are history

2009-10-26T19:50:00.003+08:00

omg i have stalkers..
indians to be specific.

Anyways
i see and i hear ppl talkin the way i do.
or even calling ppl the names i called..
like me calling faris anneh...
like me calling a boy my sister.
callin a fren of mine ddarling.
calling my fren love.
and tht one was unique i knoe.
and i jus laugh when i heard u talk like me jus now ..
it was jus funny.
kknoe wht?
gossip for all i care..cuz i dun have hate in my heart to hate u.
and im glad things are over.cuz i see ur true side now.
and no this time im serious.lucky i forgived but never did forget wht u did to me.
and thiis is wht always happens...it will happen again when it has happened before

and i have to start being more organised.
and hardworking.
oh boy.i promise i keep to my pormise if u jus give me one mre chance.
now i beg.jus once.help me with this.and ill stay gratefull i promise.

and evryday they hurt me
in differeent ways.
i knoe she wants smone to vent her anger out.
but cme one im not gonna stay silent when u always do this to me.
how much mre u wana hurt me.it hurts and tht jus sucks.
puttin a fake smile across my face now it isnt easy as before
and im trying my best.evrytime u hurt me i dun say a word.
i say nothing.when night falls u hear me cry silently.

And.
my real holz wud oni start oni if i mke it thru.
oh boi this is so stress full..

dearest i meant wht i said.
i was in love with u till i knew it wasnt worth
never wud appreciate for u are arrogant.

uh..
smth gotten into me.
sick in the head.
getting regular migranes.
ah jus hope i dun die without telling my mum my brothers and my close frens tht i love them
'
im done.

good luck to those who r doin their o levels..

and indianns are relli being slutty now adays.
damn im an indian too.
they are jus disgracing us in whole
im not being racist.sorry

all shades of blue.heee.
amzing uh..its jus one colour.
but it jus different shaades

and nick.dun worry
evrything gonna be ok.
and though im hurt with wht u said.
a gd fren never leaves a fren even though wht u do=)

Nth new

2009-10-25T21:12:00.002+08:00

time: 9.13pm

jus came homeg
brought mum to shoppin gave her about 60 to 70 dollars for shopping
though it sounds little im not working to give her loadz of money!
i tried!=p

so we did shopping..
then went to cousin house.
while..watch the dnnoe wht show..

then homeee.

chats with pamela ela=d
she is sick D=
GET WELL SOON!!!!!
LOVESSSS=)

Boredom striked when im home alone

2009-10-25T10:55:00.004+08:00

1. Would you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your wife or husband?

+ My bestfren is not a gay=p
anyway my girl bestie nor my husband wud do tht

2. Where were you on your 17th birthday?

+ Not even 16 to reach 17

3. Have you ever seen a live bat?

+ YesYes!

4. Is there anyone you hate?

+Yes.A Man

5. How much are you on the phone daily?

+max 3hours?

6. Do you like the color orange?

+Uma fav. i dun hate the colour

7. Do you find it in your heart to forgive?

+Yes but not to forget

8. Have you ever seen a prostitute?

+Yes like thousand times

9. Have you ever seen a real redneck?

+Dun think so

10. Do you like tattoos and piercings?

+Piercing. tongue and eyebrow=D

11. What size shoes do you wear?

+OH MY GOD I DUNNO

12. Whats your favorite season?

+Winter!

13. Do you care if people talk smack about you?

+sort of.

14. Do you like someone?

+ till three days back..

15. Does your dad call you a nickname?

+And u have found out who do i hate.

16. Are you in a good mood?

+Not really

17. Do you think people will exist forever?

+obviously not

18. What is your sign?

+ cancer wish i was a leo or aries=D

19. Do you believe in luck?

+YES once in while

20. Would you rather sky dive or bungee jump?

+Both pleasee!

21. Do you like snakes?

+Yup

22. Where is one place you would like to visit?

+Gold coast ,australia,brisbane

23. Do you like waffles?

+Yeas!

24. Anything you are looking forward to?

+Shopping with mum later in the evening

25. What clothes are you wearing?

+black and pink tee and shorts

26. Do you watch TRU TV?

+didnt knoe this channel existed till now

27. Be honest, do you like people in general?

+Yea.the bigger the merrier=D

28. Big or small dogs?

+BIG FOR DOG..SMALL FOR PUPPY

29. Do you like Big Mac?

+No i cnnt eat finish

30. Did someone bother you today?

+can i talk abt yessterday?

31. What do you think about death?

+God is being sweet to tke me away from this hell and makin me meet me esh=)

32. Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else?

+Yes but rarely

33. Does someone love you?

+YES! haa..i haven said any replies

34. Do you know anyone named Dave?

+ yes...full name of tht guy is pradave=D

35. Name a friend whose name starts with an P ?

+Pamela.lols.she took this quiz and write my name in here=D

36. Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?

+YES! like evrytime i go out with my god bro or my aunty who is rellli super short

37. Got any nicknames?

+PRASS..

38. What color is your hair?

+Dark brown

39. Do you like starbucks?

+yeap

40. Are you named after anyone?

+ Yea.a singer. actualli my name suppose to be prishanjali or priscilla

41. Say you were given a drug test right now. Would you pass or fail?

+ stupid question ..fail la

42. How tall are you?

+7th shortest in class

43. Are you taller than your mom?

+yes.and im facinated by tht

44. Do you like the color blue?

+NO.blue mixed with green or purple is fine

45. Who was the last person to send you a SMS?

+Mahesh annneh who woke me up in the morning.=p

46. Last restaurant you went to?

+gokul with bavani.haha

47. What do you order at Outback Steakhouse?

+Heard of it.but never been there

48. How do you like your steak cooked?

+Well done

49. Last voicemail you receive?

+ "prass wanago orchard.call me asap"

50. What would you do if you won five million dollars?

+Evvrything laa!

51. How many hours did you sleep last night?

+ 5hours

52. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend?

+ Dun think have any so far?

he makes me feel worst and she mkes me feel better

2009-10-24T21:40:00.002+08:00

time-check: 9.42pm

Sometime i jus have no words to describe how i feel.
i dunnoe whther to feel angry or sad.

But i swear i loved u.
i loved u alot
i cared for u.Nothing was mre impt to me when it come to u.
i took care.
i tried my best to mke u stay happy.
u took me for granted.
U hurt me today.

im talkin abt two.
and it happens to be both guys,
one a fren whom i thought was my good fren
and the other was the boy who i thought was the most sweetest

Again i fell right to the ground
and my mum told me
"never ever trust men"
thanks mum u always made me feel better.
and i pray the best for u.
stay strong mum.im always here for u.
and i swear to kil anyone who hurts u.
i love u.

Today u make me cry.Tom im not even bothered.

2009-10-24T16:49:00.004+08:00

And today evrthing ends.cuz our story ends tonight.and im movin forward.without u

And im glad i was never with u.
cuz if i was ull have treated me the same way wht u have done to the rest.
i kept remindin u tht u r my fren.cuz i wanted u to erase the thought of me.
and u did ..jus the way i planned.

and then things started changing the other way round
who is goin to tell me now?noone.

so today i stand.
i say i move forward.
with the right friends to trust.
the ones who wudnt backstab me.

Think im gonna beg for u?

2009-10-24T16:23:00.003+08:00

ok im was not occupied for the pass few days
still wondering whye i didnt blog.
evryone is usin my lappy except myself.
great..

wadevr.

soo i was moody the day lan came over whenn thinesh was there.
dunnoe wht date?
so didnt talk much,
and he gotta stop eating maggie..oh god
and then once he left he msged me why i was moody
this is whti say..brother knows me the best=)
love ya.

then i dunno wht happen after thtt.
but i was relllli rotting at home.
i think i didnt go out for abt four day...and im getting lazier.

ysst after school i went vivo with my loved ones.
was jus having a great time.
doin crazzzzi shopping and catching up with evrything
me updating abt me getting over things=d
i seriouslli enjoyed myself.life crazzy much/

me and chan was like crazy couple getting excited over evrthing
then when ppl like abt to bang me chan keeps pullin me away.haha
love u load sayang.haha.i think i found the right one=D
left there around 8..
reach back at 9.30 plus i think..

when home change then went out with family
when weirdest things happen
i didnt get why he msged me like tht?but i jus wush he is ok now?
im sorry if ive hurt u.tke cre

actualli manni things happen im jus fast forwarding

and day 2 of getting over
goin strong actually

chan,thanks for evrything
i love u.

All the way to the bottom

2009-10-21T22:08:00.002+08:00

time-check:10:09pm

soooo..
i didnt go school today.for a reason or two=p

lan syg and anneh came over my house.
watched moviee.then john anneh fell asleep on my lap..
lan was about to fal asleep but didnt..poor boy was soo hungry ask me mke for him food.
cute la he..then makan makan.idiot didnt go for camp..
And i seriously didnt knoe tht boi have high blood pressurree
i luff yu

thenn.
thinesh came home.
loadz of drama happened.
pretend as if i couldnt hear half of the things he said.
wht for knoe when its not for me=)
k then i evedrop alot so
for wht i knoe.
congrats to u on ur new girl.

thats it for today.
lips sealed for tonight
annoyed=p

Moved on

2009-10-20T19:40:00.002+08:00

Actually i have alot to write.
but too much happen then i dun feel like wrtting anything.
im forcing myself to write .
cuz all bloggers starts off their blog to write in almost evryday
they try their level best to blog but after months they jus go lazy or say they never had time.
so i dun wanna be one of them=)

so ill jus force myself to write in
evrything needs a start..

lets talk abt deepavali first
i wished my bro first=) last yr i wished esh first=)
then wished nesh then mahesh anneh then elan then bavani and then the rest all came in
k so like loads of wishin ...

oh my god michael was super hot on vasantham central evryone was like msgin me saying he cute hot and stuff..*burns*
heheeh.

then ppl come my house.blah blah
was runnin almost evrywhere=p
picture il upload when im happy
brudders came over..i wanted to crazily tke picture with evryone.
i took with shamen mahesh anneh oni the rest alll came late late
all so sleepy mke me angry then i never tke picture.
alan idiot never talk properli also.ban all like so zombie tired...
so talk talk entertain evryonee.

then went to mum's bro house.
prob prob.
spoiled it.blah blah shit.

then sunday.went for mre visitingss.
cnnt rmber wht happen also?

monday slack with bro all the way ..
azmi came over.poor boy was supper tired he fell asleep on my brother's lap
and me and shamen had hard time wakin him up ..poor boy was tireeed

then i got ready to go sangeetha patrick star house.
with calvin my son, nikita,li min,rahayu my mother,ishaq,faris sy if i miss out name.
yeaa i hadd sooo mccchh of fun..crazzzy much of fun...=)

khay.
then today was school.
hate it.whye?cuz i cried.whye cuz it wasnt my fault
whye?cuz it was them to be blame.even teacher knew.
whts next i dunno? i wanna pray hard for the best.
im kinda lost i dunno wht to do next.
but i swear if only i mke it through i mke shure i stay mre concentrated ill do whtver its suppose to be done.im sorry.but pls jus give me lastt chance to mke it through.

today after sch went out with humi luqman ravin emel
went to makan at cwp.i swear its been months since i laughed like how i did today
though it wasnt the right time to laugh.i laugh till i cried.really cried.
luqman was jus being a biitch joker.i was jus laughin non stop la.
seriousli was happy for tht hours spend with them,
idiots did stupid things to humi.tke out her shoes put ice inside it.
i was jus like a big bitch and doin crazy mean things la...but not in a bad way.
haha..crazzzzy but fun time=)

went home
chats with omma.
omma my mumma.
mumma my mummy=)
she was jus being my only motivater for today
i thought im gonna be a big failure and she relli mde me chge my thoughts and almost evrything
i love u omma.the bestest=)

chatting with pamela ela.
haha i lyke her name=D OH I JUS WISH THT GUY WHO ANNOYED HER JUS BURNS IN HELL LA.damn busted case! dum worry ela cchiiiilll..lovess=) grreeen jus for u=) haha

two hours mre

2009-10-16T21:59:00.004+08:00

time : 10pm

watchin the show thing on vasantham central currently=D

khay.. Lets go back one day...

yesterday had to stretch here stretch there clean here and there..stick all those cards. and this is when u wish u had long legs and few mre arms=) KHAY.though its tiring i jus feel happy doin it.lol i sound lika kid.hee. so then my brother brought visitors to the house cuz he was bored and lazy at the same time. so melvin and thinesh came.ha mel's hair is crazy long alr..so we had mr thinesh over to. and at last my mum saw thinesh..By the time they were here i was super tired done with evrything at home..humi came over awhile..me and her went to vista point to get done with threading for me=) came home faster faster get ready to go to my grandmother's place for prayers.then cousin bro psycho me and deep to stay over his house and we did. i fell asleep while cousin brothers played streetsoccer an x box 360 game like crazy=p then next morning woke up got ready when to mother's brother's house.prayers alsssoo. then baq home sleeeeeeeppp.did last minute preparationss.

and deep thoughts. still wondering whther its worth waiting. or jus to forget and to move on since he has kinda found love. but not love of his life.=d. jealous.oh yea very.

esh anneh happy deepavali pa. love u .wish u were here.like when i was 12 u came over my house. and kept calling me girl girl cuz u wasnt used to my name.and was amazed by my glitter henna=) and when i was 13..u me small boi geevan all went tekka jus to get my henna done. and u kept tempting me to hit u when i cudnt cuz my hand had henna..and u pinchin me so hard cuz u knoe i cudnt do anything back.i rmber my arm getting swallon cuz u pinched so hard..idiot. haha i love u soo much dear one.i love u.
whtelse. happy birthday vishnu

i told u not to drink too much.but u jus didnt reply me. when it was two yrs back when i ask u to drink less.u stopped drinking. and u always asked me before drinking.haaiis..tke cre of urself.love u

Happy and PISSED

2009-10-13T19:16:00.005+08:00

Super tired.
Though i didnt do much.Im tired=p

I met Bruno Dunstan Mathews Miranda ass at boots and shoes.
then i brought to shops with much of weird expressions cuz i cudnt keep a secret
hee..then tht idiot also like crazy scared of my expressions..ahahha but damn cute la he=)
so we went shop a little..wanted to show him the billabong laptop bag which i wanted to get it for his birthday ..sadly they dun have it anymore.ASSholes.
k then brought him to gelare where the big surprise was=))
so yes he was shock..oh boi u shud have seen his classic reaction when he saw the rest of them there.haha..so yes he was shocked but happy.100% happy i say.
so we had a great laugh..crazily laughing at Bruno..then darleeng had to go tuition and
so me Dunstan umy preethi Pris went for a small shopping=p.ahah dunstan didnt get bored
shockin u know..cuz usually girls shopping is one of the last thing a boy wud wanna do..
but relli i appreciate tht guy so much.like who wud follow to shooping a guy..lols.
the then went sat and ate..for liek one hour we stayed at the shop.hahah till darling joined us baq.
did More shopping.sadly Miranda had to leave..cud see it in his face he doesn't wanna leave but have to...so he left.
then awhile later preethika and pris left.
me umy nd darling left after while.
sent umy ..then we started walkin thts when i saw him..

had so much to catch up with darlz.
then sent her home then started walking home..

thts when i msg u.thanks for thinking i lied.
just made ME SO hurt.
its Kay..if that's what u want then yea.OK.
lied?why wud i.what do i gain.

Seriously where did u go when i wanted u.
why do u want me baq when my problem are over
when u were on Ur knees that day saying "I'm sorry..i wanna be with u again"
i didn't know what to say NT that i want u ..i cannot believe boys are all the same.
selfish.they think abt themselves..so annoyed.
forgiven but not accepting u in my life as my love.but as a fren.
aand this doesn't go to only one person..those who has been gone when i was literally falling apart.and returnING when im gettin better.

so im kinda pissed righT nw.
i went to the rest profile..
u were talkin as if u knew "these few people" for loonggg ..
u were so sweet and u were sooo Talkative.but iT comes to me ..its me
who crazily msg u..its me who mkes the moves.its me and me and me.NOT U.
and yesterday i made my stand.all this while when u did this to me i kept quiet cuz i wann u in my life..but u were jus hurting me too much.but i still wonder why do i stil like u the way i always did..

2009-10-13T10:30:00.002+08:00

Morning post=p

k had two bad dreams.
tht jus sucks..
death.funeral..oh fuck tht jus sucks la.
k morning mood was spoiled cuz of tht.

sot la..
its so scary to think of my nightmare last night..

khay wht do i have today..
meet fren have breakfast=)
go to civic centre pay $300 to dunnoe wht. helping him to do it.

then mus meet bruno dunstan mathew miranda and go for lunch=)

then might be goin kkh to visit my cousin bro who id admitted=(

wht else.
for about three days u were my only happiness .
cuz evrything else was jus suckish.
But i guess happiness never stay long.
i tried but u ignored it.

more then hurt then angry

oh i think its time to give up the thoughts of u.
cuz u are not meant to be the right one.
3yrs and now gone.

dont

2009-10-12T21:39:00.001+08:00

im sorry
and i say this cuz i dun wanna lose u again.
one yr had passed since we were how we were.
i dun want it to happen again.
maybe i didnt had tht rights..

its ok

anyways im sorry
and i lovve u..

Not ready for the next one

2009-10-12T20:59:00.003+08:00

time-check:8.59pm

i had so much to write and this boi jus irritated me with one sentence.
thanks ah nesh.bitch la u!!!! feel like strangling u and killing u!
i still love u hahah.ass

k next .
i swear on deepavali eve and on deepavali i make sure ill blast music and play the noisiest fire cracker in the world
Cuz assholes have been makin so much of noise and shoutin ..i jus screamed at my mum to shut the door..pfft those non singaporens have to knoe abt singaporeans.!
wait for friday baby i make sure u dun sleep!

kaaayy
i had great ttime with my bavani syg at tekka.
i met her at hougang first..and by the time she tell me directions she was losin her patience alr.
then like soo much to talk abt la....seemed as if hours wasnt enough to talk..haha
went around and around and around..tiring siah..
then we left..sadli we didnt take a pic together but i have candid pics of hers..hahaha.
she is soo gonna kill me for tht..hahaha love u so much sayang..tke cre ...cant wait to see u this saturday=D

im not gonna give up on u
Though its suckish to see u with another.
il stay silent cuz i truly care.

okhay im so tired.

i dun like u both fighting.
when that happensi jus feel so scared.
i dun wana be close to u.
im so afraid .i knoe im gonna drift away from u.
its has jus started.jjus now u have proved it to me.
u jus used me as a info box?

i jus wish u both cud get back to the way u both were..

She was nver meant to be my half

2009-10-11T21:44:00.002+08:00

time
i wonder whther tht is a routine

khay
erm
k seriously i cnnt find anything nice to write

lately ive been putting my ego aside and have been talkin to u.
ive learnt to forgive.haven reached to the forget part yet.
and i still have a long way to reach not dissappointing myself by others actions.

and i wonder whye i do so much and get nth.
nt tht im askin for 1000 dollars or things.
im jus askin u to TALK to me nicely.i did it out of love.
and there u are baq to how u was.And i swear it hurts.

sometimes i regret being nice.
It sucks to know it jus sucks to knoe when those things happen over and over again
and the worst part is when i fall for it again and again.i wonder when wud i stop listening to the words u say...

Oh wait'
Deepavali is in 6 days time.
i usually love deepavali.cuz its one of those time when ur whole family gets together in doin spring cleaning and goin to tekka to buy stuff and evrything is done with this sweet happiness.
i can write wht went on this yr.but i dun wan to.i dun wanna say whye too

anyways..
ahahahahaha...
thanks to bavani im laughin
lols..jus watched kumar the drag queen comedies on youtube
boi he is really funny.hahahahaa.i seldom find standup comedians funny.
but thsi guy funny siah.hahhaa=))

khay i cleaned my wardrobe today
omg i took forever to clean then la.
khay.
off to watchh mre videos=D

Rmber last yr.end of the year u asked me whther i missed u.
and i said "whye wud i.i would miss preethika.cuz she is always with me"
lol.khay i miss u idiot.dun ask me whye=)

waste time

2009-10-10T20:52:00.003+08:00

i felt freakin bored jus now..really crazy bored
desperately wanted to go out...like crazily want to go out la
jus anywhere

evryone ditched me in the evening
deep when for sme birthday party
rest go sme wedding thing

i was home alone.
went to meet humi
go vista point
then wen thome..suppose to meet anand at hall
last min didnt feel good so i headed home=)
so i jus saw tht theres gona be sme dumb movie tonight
but i like one song ffrom ther.e
hahaha.

k so wht now?
oh oh and i think i expected to much jus now/
its khay..im always trying my best not to have too much expectations on anyone

andi was watching dhoom 2
oh boiiiii he isssssssss soooooooooooo HOT..
hahahha...khay

ive jus found out one thing..
by trying ur best to find out the best in the worst jus mkee my day happier
like today i write out alll the good things..
it kinda mkes me feel bter

happy birthday seetha akka

Put the bottle down

2009-10-10T16:05:00.003+08:00

time is 4.05pm

soo last night when to follow fren to 888 to get herself dinner
hey wait no
woodlands mart yes we went wdls mart=D
SO she bought her food i sent her home.

i went baq home took my bag and was off to tke bus to cck=)
since i left earlier i had time to look ard at lot 1 hehe.
went there..bought DOUBLE CHOCOLATE FRAPPE
then cousin bro came met him then we left to shan house=)
been two weeks since i went there..

haha dhinesh was soo happy to see me! he damn cute la..
hahahaha..so watch movvie while cousiz was studying for his o level.
i stayed over there cuz lazy to home =p
then saturday which is today morning we all went swimming=d
like after like dunno how long alr..tiring!
then came home..

all this while i was jus having a great time till i had to return.
oh boi whye is evrything else gd except for home.

lol im watchin spongebob ! hee very cute laaaaa
hahaha...i can watch this 24hours i wudnt get bored.
and if there was a dvd with all spongebob series in it.ill scream faint then give a huge hug to whoever buys it =D
lols..patrick soo dumb.but cute dumb if there was sucha thing.heh

whtelse...
OHH whts so funny in pretty boi!?
and crazy laaaaaa 2am in the morning!'

khay
sme time wht u promise urself doesent happen tht way=)

dearest one,i cant stand ur boyF.HE is nth up to my dearest's standard
but its ur wish i respect ur wishes and ur loves.But if he breaks ur heart ill wait silently with a shovel waiting for him to step out of his house. *waits for tht day*
k hahaha.=)

and i got this habbit in writting alot of okhay
ok
okoko ok ok...

gotta go for sme wedding now.
will be baq later.
adioz

Colours

2009-10-09T17:51:00.002+08:00

time:5.54am

morning woke up.
oh man i woke up with a backpain.i coudnt figure out why? i wasnt having any girl symptoms.
k moving on.i was really tired to walk to school so .mum agreed to send me to school then i saw anand .he waiting for smeone to pick him up to work

k i have to rush abit cuz i got to get goin

did my super hard POA exams..
the thing i wanted to avoid was to sit in the hall and do my exams where manny will hurt me jus by the sight.so tht Mde me abit upset in the morning.
lols love came all the way from her class to mine jus to purposely ignore me then go off.
hahahaha.no one wud think of tht..oni she does this stuff

after exams..sherinnya was teling me abbt how she screwed her poa.
like she knew none of the questions and stuffy anyhow whackk..her reactions always damn big!
haha but funny la..

k wait then
whenever im goin lan will msg me where am i
then whenver im upset he will either cal or msg me wht i doin.
like as if he spying on me siah..hahaha..pighead.

k hope
pretty boi feels much much better today.
and u will khay..Anything msg me..Im 24/7 free
actually not free but dun worry when u msg confirm wll reply!
hee..k i love yuew. =)

khay i mus rush if not
ill miss the timing
and all the plans wll jus be ruined
and evryone will start screwing me..=p
khay adioz.

off to meet fren
then head cck meet naven anneh!
boi im hungrryy!!!

i love u mre then u knoe it.
missing yu

Keep it close so it doesnt run

2009-10-07T19:52:00.005+08:00

this photo was donkey yrs baq..when me and him went to watch movie i also dunno where.
rush hour 2 or 3 .nt shure..
we went there watch then went to esh anneh house after the movie..=D.
OF CUZ NTH IS FORGOTTEN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANAND ANNA..
K,THIS BOI I KNOE FOR DUNNOE HOW LONG..
BUT VERY VERY VERY LONG ALR.
i rmber those time when i help me do my homework when i was in primary schhool
and those time u stood up for me.
even when my father scolded me u were so angry with him.
haha those time..sweet memories..
of cuz not forgetting those small quarells we had.dumb quarell..
anyways.I was the one who started calin u cookie monster now evryone callin u tht
grrrrrrrrrrrr.
anyways..thanks for all the support u have given me.
relli appreciat it..love u loadz nand..=))
oh not forgettin stubbon is ur identity.heha..u knoe it too

time.well everytime uu find a small tiny way to make yourself happy something or someone is so ready to Ruin ur day.
yeap tats whts goin on over here..

sweet things happening.
maybe its not sweet after all.
maYbe too manny sickish thing happen tht when small little things happen i appreciate.
like him changin for the better
from a zombie to the lovable ass i used to knoe.hahaa..BItch=)
And.my darleeng for company even though she have to study for o's she came to meet me.
i relli appreciate tht alot.
my florence!owh boi she is so much of comfort.
wait why do i find love outside if i had it at home.
see thats the point..

bro has been seriousli annoying.actualli a better word wud be hurting.
seriouslli..he has been relli hurting me to the core..
No like..he jus proves me one thing.all man are the same.
i see my mum husband in you.i dun hate u the way i hate him
but yea u jus hurt me so much.intentionally?i dunno.
i relli dunnno wht u r up to but i relli wish u stop cuz i aint gonna be the same when limits are reached..how much mre do u expect me keep quiet.
when u were the one of the reason for the tears by her in the morning.

someone not related to me by blood wished i was his blood sister.
feels bad evrytime this person raises his hands or shouts..
he jus feels bad and wish i was his sister.i bet u wudnt be treated the same.
not in a bad way for shure.i mean smeone else appreciates me more.
and not sayin u dont..
u appreciate me twice a year..
1) when its ur birthday.cuz im the rich idiot who buys u things for ur birthday even though u dun
2)my birthday when u send me a message ..a long one.

are u jus showing ur love to me for a day or two jus for the sake and formality?
is its a yes.
i dont want it.
it jus hurts to know.

adding up to this.
suspicions.TRUST ME IT FREAKIN HURTS WHEN SOMEONE SUSPECTS ME FOR SMETHING I WUDNT DO. seriousli ruining my damn freaking life.

my blog sounds so deadly...
so readers.
times are bad.
but its nt tht bad..its oni in my blog where it sounds sad and crap.
i look totally fine in sch...tactics.haha.

khay
after exams when home chge
when to meet umz..
she paid for evrythig.boii i feel so bad..
then did sme maama job lols.
k stopping.
after awhile..updatin her LOADZ of things.
went home.lay down.for hours.i stayed in room for the oni reason i didnt wanna see anyone

lan and nesh was much entertainment.specially lan..all the way talk talk talk.disturb me all the way.nesh went mia after a while.lols.
rmber nesh RUN AROUND YOUR HOUSE WHEN U FEEL BAD.hahaha.kidding.
and i kknoe i knooe i dun hve a act cute face like u...ill work on it.stop smiling.
im gonna slap u for not tagging.

khay then wennt 888 with qian hui .she wanted to do her art exam stuff.
i jus sat there for abt three hours.scribbling an scribbling words and pictures till she finished..
humairah is like some detective..*laughin out loud*
whtelse..jus return to the the place where it suppose to be called "home"
and i still wonder whye its called tht? dictionary gives a opposite meaning of home.
so whatever.im off to rot online ..and spend some quality time with the television.

sathis anneh 's have a new born baby girl in their family!
congrats..hope my sweethart rubah is happy..

2009-10-06T22:01:00.001+08:00

dun worrry..
k shit i dunnoe wht to write

but i glad to hear from u.
dun worry evrything will be alright...

and seriously dun drink too much..its gonna help u.

jus wan u to knoe im always here for u..

love u alotlotlot=))

HURT

2009-10-06T21:08:00.005+08:00

k right now i feel fucked up..
sorry but thts how
i feel..

and jus how manni mre days is this gonna be like this.
u give me mental torture
it hurts me so much in the inside.
i cant think i cant concentrate.and why cuz u give me silent torture
my exams one side u cryin at the other side..

for a min u be normal when i walk away u cry
where did the old u go.
the woman which i knoe who was strong
more then u r hurt.seeing this whole fucked up problem i fuckin gonna become crazy..
as in seriously turn mad..and get admitted to mental hospital..
evryne mking me go crazy,relli mad..

no seriousli.
i relli wonder why this happens to me?
whthe fuck i did?
probably sins i did in the past i guess?
but how much mre do i have to go through this crap.
fuck i cannt handle this on my own.
boi i jus wish i was never in this world.
i regret even existing in this damn world..

she is hurt and im hurt mre.
i see her and i see him
i see the whole story
and whts my age again.
15...wht the fuck..u fuckin expect me to see this all day?
all night u wan me to cry..
fuckin depriving

and seriousli .
friends,,
trust me not whoever u want them to be beside u wud be.
those "gd fren" never asked a word..
those frens who i didnt expect to ask me a word are there for me advicing me
ppl like uma,thinesh,rubah,lan,john,azmi,tivya,thinesh,rahayu,humairah,rahayu and mre.
and half of these ppl dunnoe the problem but they jus stayed beside me.
relli appreciate it.

ANYWAYS happy birthday bruno dunstan
happy birthday ranjini

Sinhala

2009-10-05T20:26:00.002+08:00

time-check:8.26pm

firsTLY

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DEAR AZMI!

his name used to be karthick.now azmi
k i onli got to knoe it was his birthday one day after his birthday.
so yea..this boi is and had gone through alot if life.but yet was relli supportive when i was down.
thanks so much bro.dUN worry...life is not always full of bad luck..ull be ok.loves..

khay
NEXT
NOBODY birthday la.
hehehehe

keke..sathish..kochi. has been relli vetti .so his has to constantly disturb me.such an ass..
whtelse

social studies math paper when smooth..
and boi u look like a zombie in the morning.
cute though..heee..

wtheles.errrrrr
oh when i was on my way to temple
i was thinkin of those cute ass fface of urs.
tht act cute face u gave..tht idiot u used to bee..lols.
i miss it soo much...crazy much.

k..then nicHOLAS was another asshole
whoe keeps talkin abt puppy love and frenship love
he was jus being a slut
haahaha..

kk im jus waiting for exams to end.
im gonna work..!!

*home*
evryone expects me to do wht they want.
jus to mke the situation better
but they ask me to do smth which i dun wanna do.
smth which i thought i wud never ever have to do again.
i hate doin it.but evryone is depending on mme
they all say its all in hands.they said.."if u talk the family will complete"
oh fyi not been talkin at home.
seriousli i dun wish to..usualli even how tired i am or whtever
my mouth never shuts..im the talkative one with family or fren whicchever
as long as love is there care is there.i sppeak for all i car.e
when u dun see the need ..when u dun wish to speak it jus says one thing.
im not welcomin u in my world..jus keep the distance.

sangeetha and isaq are crazzyy
hahaha..funny ppl la they..

OWH then lan and i was webcamin yst evening
idiott do all the nosense jus to mke me laugh
then i show him my new room through cam
when i was on the phone he idiot la
keep askin who who who who..
then telling me his age all..hahahaa ass
but thanks for the wishes for exams lan.love u

Awkward Silence

2009-10-03T01:28:00.003+08:00

time-check:1.31am

Just cam home from chua chu kang.
came online currently crapping with idiot tivya online
idiot keepin me in suspense till she comes over my house later part of the day
she say she got smth to tell me
and now my mind is running fully abt her.
sch an asshole la u!!!
*chases her off to bed*

k.
hungry at the moment.
did alot of thinkin durin my ride home.
serious thinking.
i jus still dun get the root of the problem.
and its totally fine with me.
cus i think im starting to get over the fact of ur attitude and urself.

tivya caught me lookin at you.
i jus cnnt accept u with her.
jealousy?i dunnoe.
i jus cant...and she gives me the stare and asks me to move on in life.
easy to say u knoe.

whtelse.
geog was dissapointing.
it was relli tough.
physics was really good.
handle with care.lols

anand's and dunstan birthday is comin.
oh boi wht to get?

When he look into my eyes.I knew how much he loved me.
I looked away when he looked at me.Wasnt able to look right back at him.
His love was too good to be true.

esh,evrything is jus gonna be ok.
and thanks for the support u gave me through the rest.
love u eshu=) rest in peace.You will always live in my heart.
The pain never healed a single bit.
it alwasy lies silent behind close doors.
Remembered by me.

And rahayu for all the support=)

old tagsssss

2009-10-02T16:39:00.005+08:00

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2 May 09, 13:50

prass-aswini: at last u tag..haha.u like ah..kkk no mre changing alr..haha its nice cuz its purple in colour..check ur name in my links=D

2 May 09, 13:49

prass-xue min: THANKEW!

2 May 09, 13:48

aswini: woooots~ finally change your skin! Me like(:

2 May 09, 13:41

XUE MIN: link u le=)

1 May 09, 14:24

prass-uma: i miss you tooo!!!! awwww..*hugs*

1 May 09, 14:24

prass-kateh: oh and u too tke cre..luv ya too

1 May 09, 14:23

prass-kateh: ur brain never works la idiott..haha..***** la..next time u call i wont pick up alr..when i want u call u wont call right..u wait laa!!

1 May 09, 14:22

'Umaaaa!: Eh Shortyy! You Ready Got Your Bestu Frendaa Missing You Soo Much. Lolss. Don't Angry Ah You!

1 May 09, 13:53

Kateh: BYE

1 May 09, 13:53

Kateh: Fine Fine.

1 May 09, 13:53

Kateh: U Miss Prass but dont miss me?

1 May 09, 13:28

kaichong: what post is that ? >>>

1 May 09, 11:32

'Umaaaa!: Shortyy So Cute Lah. Wads Special About 1st May? Lolss. Prasssss! I Misss You!!

1 May 09, 00:57

Kateh: lol

1 May 09, 00:57

Kateh: im going mad.bye

1 May 09, 00:57

Kateh: 1st Tag For 1st May.

1 May 09, 00:57

Kateh: 1st May 00:57 Post.Wee

1 May 09, 00:57

Kateh:

1 May 09, 00:57

Kateh: Love ya.tc

1 May 09, 00:57

Kateh: xD.Brain MalFunction xD.

1 May 09, 00:56

Kateh: k sorry:)Hope my brain gives me the greenlight to call u

30 Apr 09, 22:17

prass-uma: =D

30 Apr 09, 21:38

'Umaaaa!: Eh Shorty, Relac Ah. No Tension. & DON'T DISCRIMINATE NT OKIE. Aot Alot Of Good People There. And Smart ALso. Achoo, Cool Down Okayy

30 Apr 09, 20:59

prass-kateh: dun be idiot like tht..NT means so wht?? all same k..!!

30 Apr 09, 20:39

Kateh: >.>

30 Apr 09, 20:39

Kateh: Yaa,i no brains:)If you were referring to me..cause i NT what.

30 Apr 09, 06:53

prass-uma: slap...now days he also no brains alredi

30 Apr 09, 06:42

prass-nesh: u jus dun get it..nvm..tke cre..

30 Apr 09, 06:39

prass-kaichong: yea for u mahs

29 Apr 09, 21:54

Kateh: i sick laa how to come sch aiyoo

29 Apr 09, 18:15

'Umaaaa!: Your Lau Lah!!! & Shorty, Very Impt Right Your Schedules? Don't Know How To Come School Properly, Training For Wad? Wan To Become Shorter Ah? Lolsss

29 Apr 09, 18:15

'Umaaaa!: 15 Yrs Old Only, Then So Busy. Like As If Half The Things Useful In Life Like That Lols! Prasss! I Feel Like Slapping Someone Lah. Why Are Good People Always Matched With *****es? I Feel Like Slapping

28 Apr 09, 21:54

Kateh: love u bestufrenda ,tc k?idiott xD.

28 Apr 09, 21:54

Kateh: So sorry.

28 Apr 09, 21:54

Kateh: sorry,tagged.dont feel like im ignoring you ok?

28 Apr 09, 21:53

Kateh: and 6) Meeting Pamela everyday>.>

28 Apr 09, 21:53

Kateh: i come online also too tired to type.

28 Apr 09, 21:53

Kateh: u see my scedule. 1) Gym 2) Boxing training from Jays 3) Dance practice 4th) 357 Relacking 5th) Soccer

28 Apr 09, 21:52

Kateh: i go gym cause i just want to build up abit,i do jogging also k?and skippng

28 Apr 09, 21:52

Kateh: Sorry lovely bestufrenda i dont have that much time seriously..

27 Apr 09, 23:18

kaichong: thats really big >>> lols (:

27 Apr 09, 23:03

prass-umaka: soreeh!! i lluff yuew..yes yes i mke shure i get time to go with u after exams.i love yuew..yes i will do well k...will plan=D

27 Apr 09, 23:01

prass-mr g: indrani!! yes yes movies for shureee!!!.dun need haunt me in dream all..meet me alr like haunting..ahaha kidding!

27 Apr 09, 23:01

prass-rubah: yea my sweethart laa..ilytoo and miss you too

27 Apr 09, 20:45

'Umaaaa!: Anways, It's More Impt. Got See My Lau's Reaction When You Say Anot? HAHA! Sedih Siaaa! Buy Hey, You Owe Us Movie & SAFRA SOOOOOON! Lols. Anyways, Last Wk Of May, Im Like Totally Free Lah. So Plan!

27 Apr 09, 20:44

'Umaaaa!: For Cancelling Fri's Outing. Gahhhh! You Better Study And Do Well For Mid-Yrs.

27 Apr 09, 20:43

'Umaaaa!: You

27 Apr 09, 20:43

'Umaaaa!: Hate

27 Apr 09, 20:43

'Umaaaa!: I

26 Apr 09, 11:06

~~~MR.G~~~: Prasss...haha...sorri ah...next time i give u my fone to keep...and must eat more nuggets...hehehe...u owe me a movie...remember...i'll come and haunt ur dreams if u nvr treat me movie...hehe...

God knows

2009-10-02T16:24:00.003+08:00

You either got it or you don't
You either stand or you fall

When your will is broken
When it slips from your hands
When there's no time for joking
There's a hole in the plan

you don't mean nothing at all to me
No, you don't mean nothing at all to me
you've got what it takes to set me free
Oh, you could mean everything to me

I can't say that I'm not lost and found
I can't say that I don't love the light and the dark
I can't that I don't know that I am alive
And all of what I feel I could show you tonight

From my hands I can give you, something that I made
I can show you a place, God knows
If you know this place is holy, do you really want to go?

ive lost it
do i want it baQ? i dunno.
when u look at me today.ur smile faded.
proves one thing.ur love was a lie.
and to the god who made me realise tht the relationship i had was weak tht was why it was easy for u to get in between.thank you.in my story i have two gods.=)

Earth shakes

2009-09-30T22:40:00.005+08:00

time-check:10.40pm

sch was usual jus got disturbed during recess
my dear mother rahayu steal my wallet..haha

nth much today
watched slumdog millionare in class
jus try to mke subahashini smile even though she try to hide her smiles away.

went uma house after school.
watch kabhi kushi kabhi dunnoe wht i dunno how to spell..
then laugh till like mad.we share the same weakness.
then we felt the earthquake la..
like the whole house shake shake.waaah damn scary but fun siah
had good time with her

went baq to place i wish i wud leave from there faster.
mkin me feel so annoyed.
im so annoyed tht i cry.
being nice for the first few days now baq to sqaure one.
u go baq to how u were.
wht happen to all my sacrifices ive done for u.vanished.
when he called u ..u went.
its like in a competition and tht b** is jus getting the score and credit.
u jus mke me lose trust.
u hurt me once agn.it wasnt worth fightin for u.
u mke mee so angry.more of hurt then anger
no seriously do u even carE?

simple things like having my dinner.
was tht 3rd person mre impt then me?
when he called u to eat u joined in...did u even bother abt me?
for the sake u asked whther i was goin to eat..but i knew u cudnt care less
right now im freakin hungry..u cant be bothered whther i ate.
as blood u dun.
thts whye i say i appreciate ppl when they care for me.cuz i dun get it from them...

like aswini today being sweet during recess.
like lan always mkin shure ive taken my meals.
like anand who always want me to study
like uma who wants me not to get hurt but to find my way out.
like the previous him who wud get so angry when ppl hurt my feelings.and wants to slap my face when i told i was abt to be knock down by a car..
i appreciate it..

shit i got an eextra job to do now.
wiping my keyboard.its wet.

and when i do so much for u.
i sacrfice my happiness my time my frenship my love and my evrything for u.
u jus backfire me.oof all ppl u...man tht seriously hurts.
seriousy hurting me..

Choke & Saffocate

2009-09-29T23:36:00.006+08:00

time-is:11.50pm

met my darling then went to school
well can sEe in her face tht her knees are in pain.thts jus realli sad laaa
recover soon.love u..

tivya has been speakin like my brother lately which
is seriously awkward.having smeone right beside u talkin like someone who is a pain in the neck at home..anyways tivya is not a pain in the neck.she is jus nice.straight forward.
and has been there for me lately during all the melodrama and problems ive been goin throught recently.thaankss.

khay..
this who pasir ris thing is rellli crazy shit.
i feel like killing those who cnnt cooperate with it.
seriousli if cash is the problem ..jus dun come.most happy to hear u dun turn up.
the 8 of us can party the whole night without anyone else.ill show u =)
im not angry its jus tht 15 yr old jus ccnt cooperate.its jus dumb la.
k movin on..

recess uma forced me to eat comin up with an excuse tht it was her last day fo school for her..
speakin of last day of school ...im gonna miss her oh so dearly=) though we live few blocks away
given her half and hour allowance when i need her beside me ..*inside joke*
and seriously gonna miss those sweet recesss times i spent with u.=(
we shal meet for dinner wahahaha..oh and seriousl i have a lady in mind who wud think
"ha this loser will have to sit all alone after she leaves school.she will regret not worshipping me"
ha fyi. about to join baq wit class 2/1 from next yr cuz we all have oni two yr left to spend time with each other..an after ttht dunnoe where will we be ending up at..sigh..ill relli miss my form class and 2/1...either tht or the plan tivya was saying was to spend mre time with class 3/2
cuz we assholes are not bonding at all..and its time smeone came out with an idea..
lols.then the other plan was me tivya ravin luqman jolyn together.lols i dunno la..
i think i not even planning to go for recess.ahahhaha.recess is a very impt part of school=p
whye thats the oni chance i get to seeee uuuu...NOT oni tht its jus time to spend time with ur frens la..k crapping too much..

after school went for physics supp.was relli tired..energy drained out..
after physics went to math supp at comp lab ..at 3rd floor..finish ard 4.45 i and jolyn left..
oh no not forgetting how much i laughed my ass off at comp lab la..
laqman was jus being a total whore la..hahahaha..keep mkin the lmaest jokes ever.
but i kept laughin till my tumy pain siall...hahha i reelliii enjoy being with him la..
left then went to meet faris awhile talk to him under sme block with hudayyah and si yan.
then ciaoz.

went hoem too tired fel asleep woke up hour later.
ppl came to get my new fridge done.
went down with momma to buy food for myself..

bro come home then left again
his fren kochi's sister is unwell.
hope she is fine..

my love is not involve i believe=)

k ermmm it 11.50 now..
i better go study..
adioz.

love all
peace

i jus wanted a reply from u.
not silence.

yes eswaran i love u more than anything=)

my LOVE

2009-09-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

time-check:10.10pmcool timing..k i knoe its lame.

k tom might be meeting indran idiot after school.he wanna buy smth for smeone hehehe smth..

uma is badli hurt..and tht jus sucks alot la..
i feel sooo sad la.
darling hope u cud walk properli soon.
tke cre of urself.love you

recess was great actually
haha vidette was jjus talki and talkin all the way.
then it was suha's birthday today then i almost forgot
so i wished her afterwhile..felt relli guilty la.
then nvm moving on..

last night bro tell me about one of my close one..
i wont be able to see him for another 2years.
boi i jus cnnnt believe my bro words.
it was as if i was in a dream o wht..im gonna miss him so much.
relli so much.hurt in the inside knowing i oni can see u when i 17.
love u dear one.u will always be rmbered.sighs.

sucks la..this jus sucks la.
like wtf la...why did he do tht do get tht la.
curse the world..actualy it was his fault also la.
waaaaah hate this so much.

k moving forward again
and i again hate to go home.
i hate see situations.i hate to see the sad faces
i hate it..hate hate hate.
mre of hurt then hate.

k.whtelse.
aravind was talkin abt him all the time.
and i kinda believe wht he said.
he sounded so true.k uma said might not be true..lets see how it is...

feeling reli exhausted.
i wont blog starting from tom i might blog on friday if i dun go out.
saturday no..sunday yes maybe.
mus start doin the last minute revisions.

and smth which relli hurt me today was.
the gift she got me ..it broke.
its not my fault.i jus move it and it broke.
my fren told me its a sign which says there's problem between u and me.
and true enuff im hvin problem with u..
aand the gift u gave me..was the gift evryone loved and was amazed by it.
and im relli sorry.
im relli hurt when i saw it broke.forgive me.it was not my fault=(

One Last Chance

2009-09-27T15:18:00.006+08:00

time-check:3.32

k i have so much to sae.
i dunnoe where to start.
but though nth has change much in my life i really feel alot more better.

friday recess was funny..umz was tryin to stay calm.bakthi paravasam
haha she has been fasting for abt a week for the prayers on saturday night.the kumbuduthanam
ask the meaning from ur parents they shud knoe.

k then ...miss subashini was fed up with our class..but she stil smile at me in ur faces.hahha
k after school walk to vista park with uma and chandini..went to play swing all.
hahaha damn funny siah..but i relli had a greaat time.a gd laugh!
thanks to bth of yuew..i relli had a grea time.then walked back home with uma after sendin chandini baq to bustop cuz she had focus..

walk baq..thats when i told uma wht has been goin on at home
i didnt knoe she didnt knoe abtt wht happen in my family when i was primary.
maybe cuz i told preethika.then i thought i told uma also.but uma didnt knoe anything.
so yea yst two days baq oni i told her..she was kinda shock and didnt knoe wht to say.
and sorry didnt tell u before..i didnt feel like telling one anytime sooner and didnt had the time also.then she came my house.chat.i knoe she is relli relli upset with my room condition but she knoe who was to be blamed.it was totally not my fault.

k then uhm after awhile sshe left around 4pm.
i sat down ate watch t.v.
took my shower then left my house at 7.30pm when to meet umz darling again.
went to temple.walk to temple actually then after 467865456 years i prayed.
and noone wud believe this cuz wht umz said was true.u wud jus get peace.
and i did,.after not able to get sleep for about four nights. i slept well tht night.thnx umz.

yes.idiot.u have itchy legs.stubbon ass la u.
cannot rest at home but mus play soccer.
i gonna slap u very soon la..annoying idiot

then saturday..went fareast with yong kang,shamen my bro and mummy,
basically shpping for my bro.and u wud be suprise i bought nth.i kep telling myself ive done shopping of punjabi suits which alr cost abt 150 in total of accesories and evrything.so i better shudup.so manni nice clothers..omg the heels was jus relli relli attracting la.
i knoe i wasnt gonna buy.i purposely didnt bring my dbs card along.haha my mum was like haha where ur card neve bring ah.hahaa.then shamen very sweet to my mummy..both of them have sme type of mother and son bond thingyy.then shopp for long then went home..

rest awhile..didnt had time to take a short nap.
cuz later at night had to go for umz kumbuduthanam at temple.near chinatown if im not wrong
so got ready.wore red colour.cudnt find anything yellow to wear..the prayers all mus wear yellow but for me exceptional cuz i wasnt doin it..so i wore red.
then left my house around 9.30pm..went her house watcch t.v talk to her mother who is a real entertainer.she damn funny siah.and she has beautiful eyes.and now i knoe where uma got great eyes from.ahaha..then erm around 11pm we left her house.went to fetch the other umy..then went to the temple.then relac one corner..missing the chandini..talkin how much kuuthu she does all..then went inside temple they say 5am oni start siah!.we though around 3plus four start.
and i though can reach home around 5 or wht siah.hahaha..5 oni start.
then we sat down ..we talk talk talk...didnt feel bored..but felt abit sleepy..then umz had to get into quee.so me and umy went into the temple.waited for umy to do her prayers.
then she did..it took sme timebut ok la.we followed her one round.
and yes her feet is small la.haha...then after praying went home reach home oni at 6am.
was relli tired by then...sleep then here i am blogging

k rest at home..mum mad idli for me..whack ..
then bro went amk ... stayed at home slack with mummy/
i feel so tired la..iyoo.

k love all
bye

2009-09-24T20:46:00.002+08:00

one day.blah blah

how i was i was a writter..

k ppl who hate me will go :wtf u suck.dun write.

hahaha.HEY cme on dun hate me?
i dun wanna hate yu.
hahaha..
i rmber doin those mean things we did in primary school
those childish things like 4agnst 1 whackin up smeone
or printing out pictured of this person editedd version ugly version
and pasting it evrywhere..wah lao damn lame la..
k i jus wanna feel abit crazy thts whye i write..

khay...
nesh fell down sprain ankle hope he;s okhay now
and thanks for evrything idiot..love ya..

who else..
OMG tivya is like MY daily ADVISER LA.
when i cried yst and today
she told me things which i never realise.
wht she said was right.
wht is permenant will always stay with u.

k fuck la i crapping im relli bored!
actualli im not bored.
im sooooo hiding soo much of things im like a talkin machine!

k my mum is suddenly so loving towards me.
thats sucks la.i fuckin feel like crying when she does this to me.
but i dunwanna mke her feel so stressed up or feel so sad tht im jus having a fucked up time
i find no use blogging after this,
ill blog when i fell better.

lan thanks for evrything.
funny saih both of our battery died at the same time! love u dear bro
thanks for tthe support.

k esh.i wish u were here right now .
its k.i love u!bye

2009-09-22T22:01:00.003+08:00

time-check:10.04pm

Last night i went home..after stayin out of house for three nights.
i went home last night.mum was there.i jus felt awkward goin home.
i didnt feel tht it was my home anymre.
like a hotel.
as said my tivya i didnt had to suffer and let him live happy
its nt tht i have to suffer and he lives happily in the god damn house.
i told john anna i dun wan him anymre.
i dun wan him anymre in my life.

and in my lonely bdus rides.
i msg hym..wanted to talk to smeone.
well i didnt get any replies frm him.dunno whye

thanks tivya for all the advices the support and evrything .
jus like another sister..ha.seriousli i owe u baq so much.love.s

school.i thought i was doin a great job with the sticker smiles
i was feelin abit sick too.
this is wht u say a good fren knows u the best.one look and umz knew wht was wrong,
i didnt tell any of my problems to anyone.
i kept it to myself.usually i would tell to her.but i guess she has new gd frens.
its khay.ill handle it.

last night i told him i cudnt sleep.
i told him i relli trying to study but nth is goin up my head.
he told me to study.he told me to think of myself.he ask me to do it for him
he said he alwys took me as his own sis.he told me i wonder whye i wasnt his real sister.
and boi he really made me soo touched.love u so much lan anna.

and i did my exams today.
it was gd i wud say.it was not tht hard.

after school i didnt knoe whye but i came to u.
i relli dunnoe whye i did tht mistake,
and seriously signalin is never ur things.and its ok to mke a toungue slip.
hahaa saw evryone.hope evryone had fun=) dun need to lie.im cool.

well in sucha situation i thought my gd fren whom i trusted wud be there for me.
i trusted them so much.right now ive lost it.
seriously u made me cry today ..u mde me cry.
met humi cuz i relli cudnt tke it anymre.
went causeway had to talk to her.cry alot.
though i knoe crying nver helps a situation.

its khay,i dun wanna hate.i have no strength to fight baq.
i jus wanna be silent.
and one day when im gone dun search for me cuz its becuase of u.

how cud u do this to me.
relli darn hurt.
u were so believable.when i knew u were behind this i was jus so hurt
mastermind.

i jus wish u wud go away ..less hurt.

2009-09-22T16:56:00.003+08:00

1. Is that your natural hair colour?
yupz

2. Where was your profile pic taken?
in the car

3. What's your middle name?
dun have

4. Your current relationship status?
Single

5. Honestly, does your crush like you back???
ha.i think so.

6. What is your current mood?
fcuked up..feelin betrayed

7. What colour underwear are you wearing?
red.lols.where did purple go.hahaha..wtf question is this

8. What makes you happy?
loved ones.chocolate

9. Are you musically inclined?
sorta

10. If you could go back in time and change something what would it be?
wished she never married this guy.and never bothered talkin to the bunch of ppl in sch and become close

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what would you be?
penguin.

12. Ever had a near death experience?
yea countless

13. Something you do a lot?
blog.talk.go out.current cry

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
paparazzi-lady gaga

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
VIMAL CHARI

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
uncle's fren.dunnoe her name

17. When was the last time you cried?
5hours ago.around 1.15pm

18. Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
never wud

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
power to mke ppl regret and the power to kill ppl .

20. What do you notice first off in a guy/girl?
Eyes.personality of cuz

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
mocha.but i rarely go there

22. What's your biggest secret?
wud it be a secret then?

23. What's your favorite color?
purple.red

24. When was the last time you lied?
jus now.when i said i was fine.

25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
ha yea

26. Do you have braces?
no

27. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
the heart to firgive smone.to be a dog and keep quiet when she backstabs u

28. What are you eating or drinking?
nth

29. Do you speak any other language?
malayalam.abit of malay.moderate malay

30. What's your favorite smell?
perfume..ahaha..specially esh and lan one..

im jus trying to cool down.
et myself relax so i need not need to be violent in such a situation
thanks u marde me cry today right after my paper.