The more you know, the less you need

"We've gone our own ways and I know its for the best,
but sometimes I wonder will I ever have a friend like you again?"
i was jus browsin through the net when i saw this picture..=)
nth amazing.but it looks nice=D

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well woke up..around 8+..mum and dad went to buy groceries..and bro went out..
so left alone at home...did some chores..well i was bored and decided to help my momma=)
then i clean up my room..i actually wanted to change the side of my bed..i always keep changing

and aswini does not like that..
then slept while talkin on e phone.haha..i was very tired..when i woke up..took shower than went to shankar anneh's place.at bishan.haha he damn funny ah..owh he is married..my very old anneh..nt too old..=p!
then talk talk talk then left around 10.45pm..then went to yio chu kang mac...i wanted to order curly fries.and there they go that curly fries promotion is over soo sad...send piradeep anneh too ang mo kio to cousin bro house ..he went to taunt over..suppose to go but tom mus revise ah..got test on monday!!then back home
reach around like 11.30..dead tired ah..then now laptop-ing..haha.im not sleepy but im tired..

oh yea...yst i fell asleep while usin laptop...then i was on bed and laptop was at the edge ..lucky it didnt fell..
that was went bro came home,then happen to see..he kept it..the nest day which is today..morning he nag la..wht else..

wel had great time put=D..TILL WE MEET AGAIN..

miss eshu today more..donno whye..
cant wait for exams to be over man..neet to visit tons of people alr..
tke cre eshu..love u moremore.tom will love u moremoremore khay..
be happy about that!!

kk i love all who is reading my blog..i miss almost evryone...
and i still have faith one day u will realise who r ur true friends..till then il wait=)
im not a passin cloud ,she is=p!

this is for indraniii a.ka indran

haha here u go indrani..hope u like it.
oh to evryone else..indran was soo sad to to see only words on my blog so he wanted pooh pictures..sooo here it is..tke cre indrani!!

by the silvery moon...

time-check:9:05

neh..im not gonna edit my last post..gonna leave as it is..=)

love all my tagger,keep taggin..aleast then ill knoe u read my blog=P!

morning..hmm mor-ni-ng..morning..sorry trying to recall..
uuh oh so i carried my collections of bottle to school like an idiot..luckily momma drove me to school..then yea this guy who was sitting at the general office "do u need help?" yea an indian guy,sec1 i dunnoe who is he..then i was sooo like shock and happy uhs.then i smiled and said nah its k..i can handle...well the truth is i CANNOT HANDLE it..haha nehmind..

fkin bad luck is we had to sit at the parade square..grrr...then kumareswaran was there..so he come sit with me then we talk talk..then sherin came chat also. .i was sooo like angry uh,i din wanna caryy to huge plastic bags and carry around.so i sat right infront.haha very cute when sherin ask dhinesh hold the plastic bag kumar tke one step back..hahahaha..well the bad thing was sen kah ,zhen xing,joe,then another guy was there..they keep disturbing me..grrr...then my np uniform was missing..fck!then my frens help me caryy those huge bags up while i went to search for my treasure..yea xin yi was holding onto it..haha bleah...

then geography paper..i can past but maybe not with flying colours..abit lost at certain parts
so yea lessons as usual..the part where i look forward to recess!!not for food!! but to see the ever loved uma akka..its always nice memories with her..she makes my day great=) haha
and there goes our hot topics for today..but then we didnt see the the main person of the hot topic today..booo

then after school..went for tamil copywrite ..(compo)..finished it and rushed for npcc..
well i was abit sloppy today..i didnt feel like goin for npcc today..i felt like skipping it but its been three weeks since i went ..so yea its not good..im getting lazier=( i dun lykee!
so sour thing is since im in the training comp they ask us to tke them
training comp :rahayu(ic),kevin(ic),kai chong,me,ain..
so we had to split..then when we split it was me rahayu and kai chong..
then we kinda did a good job..then my ci ask me to swap with ain from the other group.
then i was like shouting and stuff..smth i never wanted to do..its an exception when im with loved ones ah..haha..so yea.i was abit moody then ,sec 2 not really listening.but nvm ah they also need time to blend in=)then i was sooo lazy and sloppy that didnt march properly during my training..so my senior was talkin to me thinkin that i didnt knoe how to much..then she told me not to be sloppy and endure..lucky wasnt scolded.=p!!zhen xiong is the new chairperson..
didnt exxpect it..bt hope he isnt too strict..
then kaikai chong so funny ah keep banging and insulting others..haha..very funny la he...

then bruno was waiting for me to get done after np..pris too..so i felt bad not following priya.but she was totally cool with it..then three of us went to 883 then gossips...so much to say but jus cudnt..dunnoe whye...perhaps some other time..owh then went to buy bubble tea
bubble tea flavour : green apple ice blended without pearl but with green apple jelly *breathes*
(all time favourite) oh before i cud order ..bruno guessed wht i was abt to order ..then pris and bruno chorus " blog!" ..then i was like damn..so not posting anything anymore..i blog so detail then they know..GRRR

haha baq home resting......chats with uma akka online..haha miss her sooo much alr!!love u umy akka..lovelove.hottopic..haha..she very e cute..hehe

oh yes ..i love eshu also!..=p
eshhhhh im sooooo eshausted..boooo
tke cre esh..will try to drop by ur house soon soon=)


its been long since we talk...better off??u think for urself?

over again,not changin my mind=)

time:7.43
so school life...morning was not too good,oh then hahahaahahahah funny part is u looked at me..whoooo...wht happen to ego uhs?hahaha ego idiot!bleah..

then today was mathematics it was simple yet to known for careless mistakes..i knoe ive done one sum wrong..grrr.but i think i wud have done good for it..ive been paying attention alright!!

sitting infront ..right infront ..listening ...ears wide open.im no nerd..sitting infront u learn so much trust me..cuz i was one of the one who used to sit right at the baq and pay no attention on studies..haha..yea hello have changed alr k..thought sitting infront might be a problem cause teachers have loud voices and mkes me go deaf and yea have to keep passing stuff to the baq all..abit annoying.but i think ive listened alot for a day=)

recesss uhmmm nth much..
tamil was so much fun..we didnt study la ..we played with language.haha sounds lame right..but ok la as long as evryone is in it u dun find it lame..haha..whhoooo again praised by miss subashini for being attentive..ahaha suckers.!

after schl wait for priyas..haha..then miranda(bruno) was in school..missed him so much..
well yea i am not a dithcer so i waited for priya..didnt wait for bruno..i have my reasons...i knoe bruno wud understand=)

well i hate it when u get jelous abt me hanging out with smeone else..she is also my friend..a good friend indeed..so stop telling me who to hang out with..im 15 alright i knoe wht to do!

sooooo yea i cnnt peep and look out for u..lol cause no more near my class..so sad right...missed those time..u r missed=)

as usual uma akka was being naturally cute..haha hot topic was abt kumareswaran..haha..nth bad jus disturbing oni larhz..haha...

well new problems are at the door=(have to solve em too..guide me through eshu!

ill continue tom..i really got no time to edit colour..i try to add in tom=)
sorry all....

eshhuu i still love u =)

jus don't understand why?its up to u=)

time:11:30pm

i know not evrything is explainable and i knoe its hard to explain ..
but sometimes its like so annoying luh seeing things happening like that grrrr

anyways yea tamil compo today..didnt really realise.tamil ive nver revised before=p
so yea whtever comes to lips i saw whtever comes to mind i write..hhaha oni for tamil!
so yea i managed to finish up my compo..none was able to finish up their compo except taufiq and myself=p!!so yea...well hope i dun have too manni careless mistakes!

in the hall...was normal..except i kept laughin cuz of vicky..keep disturbin the guy infront..then i ask humi block..hahah dun wanna see idiot ppl face=)
then went third level follow humi fill up her bottle..then i talkin to humi this guy from 3/3 dunnoe who also said"yaya..aiyo u ah" then i was like wth?haha weirdos..

so ran up to class cuz the fkin class key was with humi..fk i hate running in school..execpt im running after sme idiot who annoys me or healthy lifestyle!!=D!

so yea i think nothing much in school..well i skipped tamil..hahaha yea i did...shhhush...uma akka scold me ...nehmind oni her mahx..then then ate chocolate..disturb priya..haha dhinesh very nice ah,he help priya..haha.. then erh i think thats it ..then geography ..listening closely..

my fren told another friend"nice to see prass so cheerfull..soo good she got no probs"
cj:hhahaha cus this prass uh..gives her fake smiles and hell no she has loadz probz..
cj soo knows me well ah..haha

HMPH..then after school suppose to meet bavani ..but she had problems..she went down for it..i so cudnt meet her...soo sad..got so much things to say...but no time..!

hmm then walk home with priya then dhinesh came running to give me the worksheet which i ask sherinn to help me hold it cuz i was adjusting my bag....I REALLY APPRECIATE HIM RUNNING AFTER JUS TO GIVE ME THE WORKSHEET..thats reallyy really sweet uh!

then uma akka having weird dreams..haha i had one yst..but i dun usually dream like that..??!!
haha...i think yea..

oh no thats not it...im preety annoyed...if u really dun wanna heed my advice then go ahead for i care..cuz im jus so fed up...its khay..its ur life...and cme on stop showing me faces..its really annoying..im very sure u dun wan me to walk up to yu and ask "whts up with the fked up face?"
its really pissing me..and yea..if u dun wanna say hi .trust me i too dun wanna say hi too..
lol as ive said its her life ..and i dont understand why i care?

yea...tom is mathematics paper..well got to get myself prepared...and i wish evryone good luck..
oh knoe wht i wanted to say hi to you today but when i thought back...i jus walk away when i saw u after school..its how u wanted it to be not me=)
wish the best for u even if its the worst for e rest

oh and rmber when i go "errr.." it means i regret askin or talkin in the first place=D
HAHA..BUT STILL LOVED..

ESSHHHUUU IS MISSED SO MUCH.R.I.P ESHU

and yea appreciate all my readers for takin ur time to come here and read my craps and daily stuff=D

the sweet memories rewinds..

guess what!!!
i woke up at 3.30 am today!!..
supriseD??yeah meee tooo=)..haha yeah i woke up and started revising for my social studies paper today..oh gosh i was soo into in that i forgot that time was running fast..grrr..but i managed to cover up almost evrything..so went to school..oh sherin say she wanted to talk to me in the morning so i met her ahwhile..yea she is mentally tortured..booo..actually not anyone's fault..

oh i changed the song..nisha wanted this song..hope u all like it..haha bestfren also likes it..

oh and im soo angry la..i keep msging people the wrong msg uh!!..whoaaa!!
fk!!its so annoying..*paiseh* uhs..but im totally sorry to all those receiving wrong msg.

kk then i was at parade square..revising my stuff..and there we have humi distracting me talkin about romance..lawl?and i said "shit uh..now u see i forgot whatever i learn!" ..then the guy beside me(3/3) laugh at me..then i was like congrats prass u r embarrassing urself..grrr
than i continued reading when terror strikes luckily didnt end up beside it la..lol nearly man nearly..haha..then baq to class..trying to rmber the key words and points..i was so called scared for the paper..yea hello i studies so therfore im scared uh!!
when the paper was given out...when i looked at the questions..i went blank..seriously blank!!
i was like fuck i cannot think uh..its liek whtevr i learned jus vanished off..i liek abt to cry uh!*paiseh* then 5 mins of conselling helped..i return to paper and evrything seemed normal..frens all said cuz i was too stressed up..well welcome back migrane..yea people its baq and sux more now=(..it hurts alot luhs..=( its all cuz of stress..people mke me so stressed up grr

well i hate it when u ignore..=(
i said hi and all u cud do is aknowledge.??lol u r worst than bestufrenda?
nvm like i always say..her life not minee..

then recess.chatz with uma akka love..haha nice being with her la..haha than her weird dream was the cutest la...hahaha..then speak of the devil..haha kumareswaran was there=D!!!
FUNNY AHHH..

then wht uhs??owh then after recess goin up the stairs..abit annoying uhs..yea..ur frens screamin?thats why i msged u if not i wudnt have...now i understand how u feel..but that doesent mean that i ignore or aviod ppl..grrr..bite u la.

had great chatx with ashkin ..she is like a very nice person indeed..

then humi was abit annoying today.but ok la...oh yea yst sinda was a FLOP!momma brought me to pasamalam..=)

comin baq..so i waited abt 45 mins for all the indian girls to arrive..grrr 45 mins u knoe..appreciate me ...im sooo sweet!!=p!*shameless*

bleah..then owh after school walk home with priya then saw curry and chilli sauce...haha
u will never know who..hahahahahahaha..boo

haha then baq home..conference call with sherin and priyas..lol so much to talk..i and sherin was about one hour forty-five mins ah..then me and priya was about 2+ hours..haha..about 15 we didnt say a thing uh!!.hahaha..bleah...


then once i hung up..my another fren called me out..so went for dinner..well the plan was to eat over there but then we packed la=(so i bought hot chocolate and dinner..my dinner fell right to the ground when i was on the phone and the other hand was trying to flip up the plastic bag.grrr
im so saaaadddd...my dinner gone=(aawwwwwwwwwwwwww...im relli sad..

grrr...so i was so sad that i msg,qian hui,,thinesh,my uncle,bruno,chandru and bavani that my food drop..then my uncle was so sweet uuh..he was like saying he wud tke a cab down and buy me food.hahaha..then bruni was soo cute..oh then met bruno's brother bryan ..my primary school mate..he is used to be so quiet la..like he hardly talks..and now he said hi he shook my hand and said hows life..lol!!!!!!!haha manni people chngeBLEAH!
oh and then i saw john anneh ..i wasnt too shure cuz i wasnt wearing contacts or specs...then i jus walk oni..so bad right.then bro told me that it was him...grrrrrr

i think thats all la...back to olden days..memories are back=)

kalkandu..*eshu*
i miss u soo much luh..dumb la...make me so sad today...
nvmnvm i still love u khay!?tke cre love ya much..
r.i.p=)

again..with typo errors..get used to it..
im still a diamond k! sounds mre liek demon...

babygal love all her daily readers k!..

win the love..

haha..morning abit flopflop...walks with hafiz to school..=)
oh yst nth amazing la..jus spent time with cuzies..thats abt it..

so todaytoday!!..
sooo paiseh ah today!!i was rushing to find my class and to sit cuz i was talkin to preethi today morning..i went to sit at 3/3..YA!!DUMB RIGHT!!soooo embarassed!!!then ravin looked at me and said "err" than went i look behind this malay guy smiling at me..i was like "fcuk wrong class"
so paiseh uh!!!arrrghh!*covers face*

i succeeded ..for not lookin at someppl face in the morning=p!

haha..then english common test!well it was abit difficult but i think i can pass laa..well i hope i pass la..i wish evryone did well=)and good luck for upcomin papers

then wht uhs..owh POA..im baq with it uhs..i was abit confused abt it but then i think now ok alr....jus need to put in abit more effort=)
recess...went down..noone was there went up find preethi there also dun have..tthen soo sad went down again then saaw uma akka's fren vidette ,,went to buy food then yea..recess chatz..
we haven talk out things yet ahs..so nehmind...no time also..
shockin peoplehad arrived baq..i din really wanna talk cuz i reall cnnt beleive she betrayed one of my loved ones.fcuk!!

then disturb uma akka..hahaha..cute la she..haha..it used to be she disturb me ..haha now my turn!!muahahaha...still i love her okhay!haha love u umaaaaakaaaa..*hugs*

owwh for uma akkaa sake...(she deosent knoe the nicknames)
love=aswini
dear=pris
sweetie=preethi
bestufrenda=thinesh
sayang=alan
eshu=kalkieswaran=)
i think thats all luhs...

aaa..then after went on a search of my student handbook..grrr.got so much stuff in there uh...wihout that im dead...short term memory..cnnt rmber hmwk..

then preethi follow me down...
asked humi to wait then she went off..and she says she din hear me..i was loud..
ah...wwhateve she say luhs...quarell qaurell

got mannimannimanni hmwk to finish u=( have to go sinda..have to see idiot's face all..hiyoh!


im the Diamond..-loved by many
diamonds are shined by polishin and bruning..
no matter how much u hurt me by burning ..i still shine..
the more u burn the more i shine.
i jus came out with this..lol..whoooooo

ill edit once im baq from sinda alright..
im busy with studies

apologies

hey sayangs....im sorrrrry that some of u all cudnt go in.....even though i added u all into the list who cud view my profy they cudnt go in people like faris and all
so for their sake im not gonna put it private till i find another alternative!

so today...
woke up late=) wake alr took shower then went christ church to collect bro..haha my bro comes in the package..then went to have breakfast then went to rogi akka house visit her than back home..
studied awhile than alanlanlanlan syg came online then talk four 3 mins oni..pandi kutti went down to have lunch=)then wht uhs..oh i studies social studies then..oh faris bro mkes me study evryday..
he scolds me when i dun study..haha very sweet of him..love u faris anneh..he my padayapa brother..=D!!

KK I WRITE TOM...BRO WANNA USSSEEEEE..=(((((

clearence.../ hurt in the inside

yst night i msq kumar ...long msg i dunwanna write luhs..
i knoe i wudnt get a reply cuz he is not in town as evryone knows..
so i got a reply today morning..to talk in school...
met priya then to school..wanted to talk things out with kumar but preethi came late and kumar was with unwanted ppl whom i dun wanna see anymre was with him...so i jus blindly walk pass telling kumar smeother time la...

healthylifestlye whooo..exercising..cant wait for the turn to run ...me and preeethi planning to run..hahah..we r the healthy ppl babeh!!hahahah....abs wanna!haha
then yea disturb kumar and sarah then baq to class ......saw hawtstuff=)haha hot la..duh~


then wht uh..oh recess suppose to sit and settle things for priya things..but she din sit with us..not my fault they came down late....=p!!

then after school follow ain to her house then baq to school...love followed me to buy famous bubble tea..green apple ice blended no pearl but green apple jelly...*breathes*
hahha..try it..its nice..so love tried it she wanted to try smth knew..well it wasn't new to me..
clearing doubts with her..i notice manny jealousies + upset eyes all around..its hard to satisfy everyone..hope u understand..im really trying my best..dun mke me bloat...

then sherinyaaaa wanted to buy ice creamy then i follow her..then i saw suhan its been long i talk to him i think/??so i call him to accompany..then sheri cheat me..ice cream man run away alr...then suhan scold me=(not really scold actually=)

then i was trying my level best to mke things right for the rest..well im the one ending up talking..i think it was a waste of time..no offence ppl...oh and anyways i didnt talk or wanna talk to u after wht u have said that day about friendship..i got distance=)

dun mke my life hard..its not the the day or rather not the right month for me..dun mke things hard cause if i blow..im never turning baq..dun test anger..smth which i always and nver could conquer..

sooo chatz with my secret friendship fren..hahaha..crack ur heads and guess it out idiots..
haha..i told her evrything..like me and bestfriends problems..and bestie's prob too..
i accepted her apologies givingg her another chance i really think she has changed..i hugged her when she left..i felt different towards her..(no lesbians thoughts eh!) haha..different as in unexplainable..its jus a good feeling in me.

.baq to school after npcc quiz at marsling sec ..
well i was angry for the scenes i see..the scenes i see are sins..lol i rhyme!lmao

so i was angry in the outside..covering my mouth and screamin in rage!hurt in the inside.
never knew why u cudnt understand the good people...i rellie wish u find out faster...

sherinya and i had talked things out.we will see how it goes..

omg indrani has tagged me after long..i miss him so much luh..never chat with him or see him long..so stressed up luh indrani.."mr g" medcine needed..

emel,hope things go well..dun worry im holding u tight alr so that u wont have a chance to fall..
im here for u...tke cre babe ..muah..ily!!

no more the satisfying hugs..all i felt was u did it for the sake...thanks for such wonderful hurting things u said..for the things ive done to mke things right for u..lol....=)

backbackbackstabbed=)

wednesday:meet bavani(ill go insane if i dun meet her soon..i really need her by my side)
thursday :nisha..missed.missing.ily!
last paper for exam:meet alan sayang..watch movie..!!

weekends out of house.....when night never ends...and i go"night is still young"

effing hurt in the inside...thanks to best friends..ha...life eh?
will try to ignore negative and stay focuz with positive

i knoe i knoe esh..u r not happy ...for the things ppl do to me..
its k esh..i can handle it..i think?dun worry i still love u more k??haha
well if oni u were here i wud hve pinched ur cheeks so hard..grrr
wilren asked me today"ur god bro eswaran right?its been a year but ur msn nickk still got r.i.p esh..so long alr wht"
prass:no matter how manny years passes by..ill always love him the most...he is irreplacable
wilren:whoa k..

thoughts of u is back dear boi..missin u so much..nt a day i dun think of u..love ya..guide evryone..wish u never left me behind..u shud have brought me along with u..
love u esh...tke cre...memoried never fade.

im freed=) no distraction more attraction=D SLAAASSSHH

time check:8.25pm


well started off my day abit happier today=D
I had more time to get ready and enough time to sit down and relax in the morning before heading to school..finnally i have to breath..


yst sinda:bored without sitiing beside shane and mahesh...was with taufiq and rest ..i didnt talk much i was very angry actualli...i didnt like her meeting him when she is attached laa!!
nvm her life..bleah....then chat with alan sayang(pandikutti) on e phone=) miss him so much...make me so guilty ..ask me buy for him lunch all=( ...oh he is one of the sweetest ever known...=D..
then plan to meet soon..after my examz...wud be meeting once after my last examz after school or evening..im so gonna catch a movie with him.!!!

then preparing for exams..i used to sit at the back of the class..since im so called tall=D
WELL for physics ,poa,chemistry u sat infront.listen to evrything =)..im shure to do well in my exams.well i hope i do well=)

well i hope everyone does well..owh and i tried ignoring ppl who wants to be ignored..i tried but it seems that i see wherever i go...well the fact is i miss u ...but if u wan no contact that shall it be..i never wished for that..i wish it never happen...love yaa..=)

to my dear preethi...im sorry ive been askin u to help me out in stuff..i dun wanna loose in this battle...and rmber i always wish i was close to you and always want to be there to hold u back when u fall..i love u so ...im sorry if ive been abit harsh..im not having a good time this month
but thnx for all the trial to mke me happi..i appreciate that..i really really appreciate u..

kumareswaran<3...atlast laa=") haha aswini my love..try to mke things hard to me..i never get angry..haha..haha keep trying love...i dun get angry with love=)love u babe!

kk ive apprecaited manni today..i await for the special one to appreciate my care and concern
for you...i dun expect yu back..but i reallly wish u realise who to trust=)good luck..

kk im gonna study and revise..ohoh and miss subahsini say i speak good tamil..though i got spelling errors..

well school was jus so fine till home sour home came....
oh and ive not been getting along with dad recently..ive not talk to him for about four days..
i kinda duncre alr la..my mum is being like my dad...attitude strikes her..i told her i dun cre=p
i really dun..

whooo dhinesh has recovered..sorry for back dated msges=)*paiseh*

i told bavani about frienship sinking...gonna meet her probably next wednesday=)
i really need her by my side now....

feel like goin baq to sec 1.where i meet e wrong company of fren though they were there for me...might meet them all soon maybe after exams la...its been one year..lookin baq is shivers..but i really need to meet em...i dunno its right or wrong...but thats that.

kk im gonno study..

missed talkin to you..now we say nothing when we pass by....
i thought no communication and now??u talk...hhaha funny her


kk i reaaalllly goottto goooooo

bye evryone
eshuuuuuuuuuuuu ...sorry i knoe i did smth u never like me doin
but im sorry alright..very stressed up..kinda goin baq in time the way i was..
sorry but thats that...im sorry hope u arent angry..i still love u ..


slash // sash // bash..
moral?? slashed

packed,full,stressed.... oh gosh why do i have to see u aagain??

sorry ppl ..yst was too busy...
will sum up yst stuff


i feel so lost not bloggign=(
so i really didnt wanna see ppl face again..hahaha..thnx to ravin for blocking my view..bitch!
shh.kk

yst:
went to school..thinkin about the past..knowing my mistakes and my joyous times with my dear 2/1 ppl!! muahs!!
lessons were abit stuff ...as in my brain was too full for anymre informations.i was like too tired to study..recess was abit of chge...oh yea preethi told me that kumar has nth agnst me actually he thought tht actually i din wanna talk..and i thought tht he dosent wana talk...dumb right
well yea i did smile and said hi...i goy my replies..i apreciate replies alot..
oh yea out of no where..i felt that i miss preethika soo mucha and i appreciate her alot..
haha..weird huh!?kk then..after school was revolver live shoot...sadli i didnt get my marksmen ship..i got 56/80 for my test..to get a marksmenship badge mus get mre than 60..thats soo sad.
glad priya got her bagde...not manny actuall managed....sherinya also never..
oh talkin about npp..thnx to my two ains and the ever cute faiqah for so much accompany..
kai chong also...=)

speciall ainn la.she very the nice=)she was like"sabah!im here for u..dun care others.."sweet right..haha ain thankssssss 100000000 timex!!!!love... aku cinta ain..!!

haha learning malay from friends too
talk out prblems with priya things shud go bter soon

told pachai need to meet her badli.got so much to say to her.miss her soo much..=(
after npcc i came home shower and STUDIED!!
grr..from like 9+ to 1..finishing my hmwk and self study...
woke up at 5

today
abit later to school...confront ppl..then talk to preethi about stuff..then lessons were tiring
but mr andy koh was there to cheer my blue dayz..yea babeh geography.he's my fav teacher..
i never favour teachers..but i did favour hym=) he is nice..*sweetsmile*

then wht uh!...after schl went down din eat.plan to leave np early ..had tuition..
so yea..left np early with priya chatx...bubble tea..stupid bitch made me the wrong bubble tea
prass" no.i didnt ask for this" *attitude*
haha...nvm...mus get goin with hmwk and sinda....

well my migrane's baq and this time its worst..haven went to doc to get my new medcine yet.
lol actually i dun cre la.. i got no intention to tke medication either..migrane occurs because im hurt in the inside and tryin to control and stuff all feeling behind my smile.thats hard..very very hard...

well i wish evryone's happiness to last long
tke cre evryone..
owh gosh.eshu i miss u..missing you..wish u were here seeing the hurt..
lol..i bet u wudnt be too happy seing this up there..its k..i can handle.i think?!
its k hope ur safe in god's hands..


love ALL my readers..=)

when i dunwanna see u ...you are right there..by my side..i haate thisss

looking behind

well i really think some ppl shud stop readin my blog..
cuz my story line will not have you in it..thats for shure ...

school?well..morning was rushing up with POA homework...
about studies not upgrading...but im jus abit off studies...i shud get back into it..jus abit distracted trying my best to mke things for me and others right..i dun think i wud have tht problems anymore....

so yea i was telling humi about yst ...well she said its kinda my fault..noone tkes it as it actually was..
thnx to faris anneh..who tried to comfort me ...thnx alot bro...really helped..love yea..muah!
haha then yea..i didnt wana look for anyone and smile at anyone..not in the mood...

well yea as i wished..nothing appeared in sch to annoy me..wheee...
so lessons..then recess.was much of gossips and camp stuff..hahahaha...nice time with my dears.
then tamil class wa abt it off...


after school priya kinda ditched me..i was abit angry la...she once told me i was unbelievable cuz i talk to sherinnya..but i thought sherinnya is nice la..and now its all e way round..i became invisible i was aangry...unknowingly or knowingly >fuck it ..its still it..well its not the end of the world..i got other frens..infact better....
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lol u joined my click jus cuz they pitied u
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then after shooting course which was abit tiring went back to school..even went leaving also never even say bye..wtf!!lol i dun care actually dun affect me much..lol..

then wht uh..owh yea went to 883 to buy stuff with ain and ainz..then chiow ....
go home shower than for sinda...humi suppose to come but end up never=(
then i ask shane gregory to by me drink and he did..thnx !!
then went i open the drink four ppl liek laughing la..then i was like blur!!
then i knew that they shake the bottle so much thats why..dumb
haha but it din spill=p!

then ppl i dunnoe all come talk to me??so weird.
oh and shane's fren come and ask whether piradeep my blood...i was like yea!?
hahah..funny ppl...]

then in class tufiq lose his ring thn i so sad...then end up it was like in my bag..i so paiseh!!
aiyo..but he is soo nice la..he tell me "chill la prass,not ur fault..its ok!"
haha but guilty!!la!!

k then mum cheat my feeling
say bring me night market(pasamalam)
boo then never..then baq at home

prass and bro eating
prass:today in school in ur class like very hot right??right?right?
deep:relacrelac..haha yea!yea!i felt it..evryone also say e same!!so hot luhs!
prasss:yea then i go air-con room..hahha booo
deep:big thing?!hahah jkjk...
then whispers to bro smth secret sorry cnnt wirte
oni between siblings...=p!


kk bye loves...
i wont be coming onlinr often.got to get into studies..will try to blog evryday..
i miss eshu..if he was here..i will had flood him with my thoughts..

miss all..love all...
muahs evryone


love my bavani sayang alot..tke cre darlink!!

sorry for typo errors

emails recieved!=D..

EMAILS todayaya..cut and pasted few...
aoh its about friendship by the way....sit back and read=)



I don't know how to say
I don't know how to start
I just want you to know
how I feel from inside
I don't want you to leave
I don't want you to cry
Its just that you’re the best

I tried forgetting you,
I already lied.
What can I do?
I'm hurting inside

I thought friends were forever
and foes were for never,
but nothing is as it once was.
If it wern't for that arguement,

In my mind I saw it comming,
cause things wernt the same.
I guess I got scared so I started running,
but now its over..both agreed on it

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I see your smile
I know your mind
No words need be said
I understand.

Focused on each other
We listen and we care
Laughter ripples like water
Together, we are.

Others are here, yes,
And we value them, yes,
But a special bond remains,
A line between us two.

Each friendship is special
Each is unique
And so is ours
We know.

And then time begins to roll
and rear it’s ugly head
Change begins
Now a little less than before.

Slowly, surely,
Not knowing why
Faster, stronger, without care
Our world shifts and shimmers and splits.

Shattered shards cascade down
Spurred by angry, lashing words
Contorted faces, stone deaf ears
Outside the whirlwind,
We die inside.

The scars run deep
Jagged clefts in our souls
We have suceeded in hurting
And hurt ourselves.

So you move on
And I remain
We keep on living
Turn our faces apart.

Now I glance across
At you from outside
Shaded eyes dry with tears
New friends, new life.

Laughter, smiling (clenched teeth)
The flippant toss of the head
The enclosure surrounds you
I cannot come near.

I have been there before - I love you
And I cry inside
Tears deep within my soul
I cannot help you anymore.

What we had once
We can never have again.

The scars run deep,
But I still care.

preethika...need u soo much right now =(

morning kinda suck ....

dad and bro cudnt get along..bro went out to meet suganthi then off to play soccer..
i have to get done with homework=p
bleahhhh

oh btw i woke up at 11.30 hahaha.
usual time of me wakin up is 8+
so mum thought i was sick...dumb.......
well quarells at home..though im sad abt it i dun wanna care..
i try hard not to care..i try hard to ignore..well i tried.it works abit la..

skipped lunch..no mood to it..nicko was such happiness..thhnx to him he kinda change my moodyness to happiness

then pachai came online..i missed herrr so much..so much to talk to her..
then thinesh was online so we all chat..so sad pachai left alr..
then i thinesh chat...shahidah was the hot topic..=p
nvm...evrything is over...im done with it...never will turn on..

kk im not gonna blog my sunday evening .....gonna watch t.v and study and pack bag..
finish up sinda stuff..and take off early


eshu..today sucked..its k..well life isnt perfect...
tom not gona be home early..gonna go out...
so might not blog tom too...

oh yea.gonna make my blog to private blog..dun wan other ppl to read it..
give me much time to find much time to get it done...probably by this month=D

valentine's love and my sweet camp

hey ppl..went to kota tiggi for two nights...=D
AND THERE runs my MEMORIES=)

its gonna be a long post...with typo errors..bare with it
sweet ones..


firstday
bac in hall...dhinesh didnt go for the camp due to hand breaksss..aww so sad ah..hope he recovers...we left to malaysia....
bus rides was a wrecked..not my luck..alot of misundersatndings...hate it when it happens...
at that time esh was running through my mind...eyes floods with tears but rolls it off la..
then aliah and christine was much company...appreciate it alot man...felt abit better...
then we got ready our day packs..change to wet attire then move on to a lake then we suppose to sit on rubber tubes and slide down the river.haha and while friends splash us with water..oh great my first activty and im fully drenched uhss!!then after that we went to the pond..wear our safety jackets and jumped into the water..whooo funny uh..my frens all so the flops and all type of stupd way..haha..me and my friend fall backwards ahahaha..then i jump alr i cling onto faris then humi...haha my jacket was so big that it was like about to come out uh!!grrr...aiyoo!
then jump jump jump again..hehehe..fun uhs....

then went to indianna joannes..(the mud water where u have to use plank to walk across )
that was really fun.instructions were all screamed everywhere..i kinda managed to go half way there where i fell down with my fren purposely making me fall..grrrr..
haha but very fun ah..
hahah yusuf very cute ah..hahaha...
i kept laughin and laughing through the games...
then we played the low rope element..the log game where u have to jump over ..
well many were afraid to do it...lol but i wasnt...hahax..
i thought it was fun..lol then we low played blow windty blow..haha the words those ppl say is soooooo dirty ah..all the indirect meaning!!
but funny la..then night fell i cudnt tmber whtelsewe did??
but then we wash up then dinner then nth much i think....
but it was abit tiring with water sports....=D
I SLEEP ALR!!very tired!!plus i had slight headache...lol i saw suhan chandru.
.but too far to say hi..lol

day 2
i woke up at 5.30!!omg!!early ah!!hahax...then wash ups...then gather at the campfire site...
lol bubble fren was there..hahaha..lol..then my friends came late so they had to do chicken dance ahahahahahahaha...hahaha..humi had to sit beside someone.lol!!lol!!lol!!
then we did bi-cultural programme..winner will get 1 hour of shower time haha
my group was the winnner..group:farhan,yusuf,faris,humi,prass,emel,aliah
haha then we scream scream trying to run back like mad ppl loose..cuz we mus hold each other when walkin la..haha..then we were first wheee..thendrank so much of water..=D!!
we played games under the shelter since we were early haha..the games all very cute la...hahaha
then we had lunch..i made the paper thing...fold the paper for eating..so whatever u guys ate was all my hand touch hahaha..=p!i din eat much was not hungry...then went over to the flying fox thing ..well i choose to go flying fox cuz i thought the other one was much harder..
so climbing was easy but the jumping off part was abit scary.but i managed to do it..
humi cried..then hugged her and comfort her..welll i kinda lost my voice after shouting for 15 from the bottom to humi who was on the top ..haha..oh yea bestu frenda and suhan was playing indianna joannes..hahahahah very cute la bestufrenda..hahaha..humi"actually yeah he is the cute one over there" hahaha..yea la he damn cute when he playing haha..
suhan funny ah...but he play very smartly haha=)then all of them ran over to other side sliding into mud..grrr..dirty boi!..bleah..hahaha then it was time for camp preparations..it went quite good..then wash up.then sat at the outdoor....then my competitor star boy came..haha i very jelous la he also got star jacket...bite him la..grrr..haha mine nicer khay??hahah.kidding....it was raining it spoiled our outdoor campfire=( i was soo sad laaa..!!
but then we took shower than campfire time...well the cheers went on while the songs went on..the mc was jokers laaaa..haha make me laugh so much...well i i sat with faris bro he damn fun ah..hahaha...then went the msg came about i started to tear..miss 2/1..so much love.filled with love that momment..hahaha...night fell again then i slept in pris tent..thnx pris so much..i really apreciate it alot..love u dear!!!priya too

i wanted to hug all my besties all..but evryone all around so i din hug evryone but almost evryone
thats all for day3..i enjoyed myself=)

day3
packed up ...wash up hugs filled evrywhere.
hug,ain,faiqah,humi,aliah,emel,preethi,pris,aswini,priya,preethi,yui hui,faris bro alot mre..hahaa

then area cleaning i dun even wanna talk about it..after that we played blow wind blow again..
hahaha..mre funnier seh..luqman so damn horny ah!!speakin of which..all of us saw one dog kanna fuck bye two for liek sooooo damn fckn long.even our intrustiors kept laughing..i was soo liek disgusted!!!eeeewwww..lol i promised that ill blog abt that!!

then back to spore..i received loadz of messaage..sweet ones from manni...
well hope love life goes well for everyone..back at school..she din talk to me properly abit annoyed and taken baq..then wht outside school saw chandru and gang opp school..i cudnt spot manny not good eyesight..then bro and momma come fetch me..onehugs to evryone then in the car i wave to thinesh that idiot liek so blur hahaha


go home use laptop..missed technology sooo much ah!!then suppose to meet my fren but then cudnt i very tired to go out..sorry i cancelled it...sorry..hahaha the best part is i go send it to thinesh..lol thinesh thought that i was msgin my boifren..nonsence laa....
then msg awhile then he nth to say...=( so angry ..nvm....

went down buy dinner ...then went i come baq i blogged..then went my bro come back my bro gave me a rose and told me happy valentines day..sooo sweet right..love yaa broo..hugs..kisses..
thats all for today.....

love al u of u
eshu love u mre anne...happy valentines' day=)

learning journey was a flop

yst night was busy..
messaging laodza ppl..and one fell asleep while messeging me..the other slept while talking to me
well the one who slepy while msging the famous bestufrenda..yea who else thinesh larhz..
ask me to msg him..force me to msg him end up him sleeping..*slaps thinesh face*



well i was happy there was no lessons today but my trip was a disaster..
the place kinda suck...and the things tht happened there was more annoying then ever..
i kinda regret being close with some ppl.its too late for me to move away now...
fcuk!!

food factory stinks!!boooooooooo

well we were the first to reach school..whooo "congrats" suck uh!!!
then came home had to charge laptop cuz bro never charge !dumb!!
then pris preethi and love came my house...chit chats...well yea i will be like wanna say some story and three of them will go "i read all this stuff on ur blog alr"
i was whoa lao...im running out of stuff to say..my blog is to detailed..grrr..
close my blog!!??? not gonna happen!!bleah


then homez for them while nap for me before sinda starts..well she said she doesn't wanna go sinda anymre im still going for it... i gotto live my life..hahax...
kk well sinda was not good shane was damn sad he look as if someone he love died..like how i used to look when eshu passed away..actually even worst..well skipping it..i paid attention in class.today abit less distractions in class though shane was sad..well karthick made frens with me ..he is abit annoying but funny la...hahahaha..

lol then mahesh tried his best to comfort shane.

well i told the truth to Nicholas..well he is like a bestfriend to me la..i cant eventually lie to him..
so yea...i did tell him..i side for him for the ruknesh thing la..haha..


yea i did my packin of bags for camp today..
non uniform group ppl-when u ppl..hear the word 'camp' u find excitement,,
but uniformed group ppl- when we hear camp i got my phobias running down my shoulders...

yea there u go!!! i kinda have phobias for camp well yea..most of my camps are all cca camps..and cca camps are never pleasant mre of stressful and timing..no timing then get ready to scolded by instructors..welll im still scared to go fpr tom camp ..kinda la...

thnx to those who help me out with my packing
ppl who remind and helped:
my love
preethika
momma(mum)
bro
dars
priya
yu hui
choy jing
yea thats about it i think.....


today was abit of the sad day thing..i nearly cried not cuz of the camp but smth else la..


to be honest im not looking forward for tomorrow=(

eshu help me !!!stay with me for the next three days.i suddenly feel the miss of him..
i miss you more eshu..all ur fault la eshu!!not talking to u alr!!grrrr...kk actually nt ur fault..


tags wud be replied when im baq!
gone from 12 feb til 14 feb...grrr three days without blogging omg thts soo sad..
dun worry ill update u all when im baq..
wish me luck


and if cuz i appreciate all u ppl readin my blog..
loves evryone=)

go with e flow

yst sinda was effing funny ah

one guy ask hafiz to ask humi to ask my number when i din even know he existed(he said he got see me few times)
then i and humi was like laughin our heads offf for no reason..then humi keep bugging me to give number jus cuz he was cute..bleah...
then well she kinda cried abt her love life..
well i cudnt help her much..but i did try la...we kept laughin during sinda for no valid reason ah!!
stupid!!! then after sinda drop humi at vista point that car rides home..

nth much about home..exept abit fishy at home la..hope 2004 doesent come baq..
tuesday morning..oh my ..one of the hard times where i cudnt wake up in the morning..
i was really tired..i wass so called grumbling to wake up too ahh...
school was abit confusin plus weird..

chats with fren in e morning..
then had to sit at e baq since humi insisted..i got reasons why i dunnwanna sit behind.
there's idiots ppl back front side up evrywhere when u sit behind.
haha well i wanted to say hito my special ppl well there was this goriila beside them ah..
so i din say hi..hahaha..sorriee

then saw bestu frenda..wanted to say hi then idiot turn away..u suck!!haha no la kiddind

i kinda rushin to my post cuz need to msg frenda and he wanna read

recess..dear mke cookies..for valentines..so sweet of her..thnx babe..
wel mis cookie monster kept eating them..yea my love la than who else.

*i kinda missed u*

then after recess saw him again but din say hi cuz of stupid hafiz ah!!
askin for smth i dun wanna give..lol dun think too far..hahahaha...

k went to cwp with momma to mke an account for myself.
whooo DBS card is soo cool ah..bestie's fav colour yea..its red in colour.
hahaha...then home...

chats with frens...loadz of messagin all around

kk ill update tom...bestu frenda rushin me..!!
grrr gotto go..
stop rushing me thineshh!!!


k i love alll my readers..
i love eshu mre today..haha love u esh aneh

yea thinesh u suc...but sweet of u to rmber my fav colour

sooo u there u go red fonts..

monday bluez

time:3.57pm

yesterday night was tiring..
went to play badminton over at yck cc...
din go thaipusam..no mood...(that shud have answered bestu frenda question) =)

yea...very tired today morning...
went to school with so much of stress in me..cause i haven finish my homework yet ah
and when i dun do POA work i knoe wht happen to my table
for those new readers:my table will fly out of the classroom..=x!
yeaa i was like trying to do my level best to finish it up well i kinda finished it but i wasnt satisfied as my hand writting was worst than myhair today
lol speakin of which..bad hair day!!!yea....!!!
wrong shampoo results to bad hair..thats why i pin up my fringe and use soo manii pins to keep my hair as need as possible even though it was abit obvious my hair was in a mess..
so sad...then preethi din answer my calls..
and i was fed up wit it..cause she NEVER replies my calls!! and the wrong time where she din pick it up!! fcuk!!!then she came school with apologies and excuses..wait more of excuses which annoyed me further..im not angry with her at all...if this was smeone else also i wud have felt the same..i was jus having sme stressful moments.soreh larlink!!muacks..its my fault..

then luqman bitch digging my bag...i was like so angry...
cause u will never know wht u can find in a girl's bag..seriously..but im sorry still..
i shouldnt had screamed at you or scolded you....but u shudnt have done that right..hmmmzz
*relaxes*
pheeewww...
yea recess so sweet of uma akka to wait for me outside my class till i come evn though i was release late..thnx =)

then yea...late newses and updates of all kinds..see again! my dear is sick..
when someone recovers the next will fall sick and i keep updating that in my blog..
arrrrrhhhh!

mother tongue was abit smooth..teacher laughin at me when i get angry..i was like am i a clown or there smth on my shirt saying "imma idiot"..beleah!!!.

oh yea btw i kinda bueno-ing..whooo

after school went to cwp with taufiq,vineeth,sara,humi and prass herself..
yea went to carve name on e ring for taufiq's gal..he is soo sweeet ah!!..haha

then back home...fill me up with food...
then back at blog blogging...later got sinda..

oh oh about sinda..my bestfren and good fren are goin on..they used to be good frens..lol no smth else...his name shall me brownie from now..she named him that.i kinda helped her in namin ceremony..*shameless* hahaha lmao..will update sooon..

thnx for all the tags..oh i din see idiot in school today..
hey dun keep skipping larhz...is either i din see u or u din come...study la..dun go with the WRONG ppl..manmathan all wrong ppl=)
u named him that isnnt it bestufrenda..

bavani also sick hope she recovers soon..love her soo much sayang=)

kk get goin with work alr...

oh id u guys noticed..ihve repeated things happen to thursday in friday
ignore it.i dun wanna edit.cus i dunnoe which is which..abit short term memory problems...

whooo guess wht..i collect 43 bottles..good huh..*self praise* help the earth babeh!!



love all my loved once.
keep taggingtagging=)
and love eshu mremre=)