mESSy

time-oh:10.14

Some time certain things in life jus inspires you.
And the same thing might annoy smeone else..
IVE learnt tht.

And anger never helped..


Yes it hurts smetime to see u in school with the other.
but ive learnt to jus move on.




misunderstanding with the ppl u love can be heartbreaking.
yeah .but hope they get to knoe the truth la....


and i miss him alr.like so much=)
laann!

nijangal now!!

Positive thinking

TIME-CHECK:3.55PM

ASHIKIN-thankss babe
ayu-ahaha better tke cre..and thanksss=D
TAUFIQ-YEAAA ur watch is fineeee..and return u alr laa..=)watch is happy




okieeee



yst evening was effed up till my dearest ones came over..hhaha
mahesh and lan these ppl are crazzyy
lann started to do my tamil n level booklet all.
while mahesh anneh starts shouting and scaring me for the fun of it.
end of the day they never let me sudy in peace.
they are so much love.thanks lan and mahesh for evrything=D
P.S LAN can never say a story properli..wahaha.

anyways yeap thatt made my day.
the things they did yst was jus damn funny.it cover up the horrible thing which happen in the evening.yes ,,,fucked up home.sorry.

anyways.
todayay..
hahah P.E has been relliii enjoyable..
laughin like mad till i literally roll on the floor and laugh .
yes the best people to play while slackin and imitating ppl while they run.
tivya jolyn humi hahaha..i was jus laughin like sme mad kid being released from hospital..
hahhah..relli that made me day too..i laughed till my tummy hurts=D

then wht..hmmm
boring lessons..but with tivya ard it was relli.
had a small nap during english=d bala selvan=p
physics amzingly ive put in effort today to listen and do on my own.*self praise*
anyways.i feel happy i went home straight after school=)


AND GUESS WHAT.
im doin a good job in stayin postive.
look at my post.evrything seems happy ..haha.
shud stat doin this more often,.


AND ONE MORE THING!!
humi bought me chocolates cuz i was sad thats like crazy sweeeet la..i appreciate alot..seriosly alot.
and plus she bought me two pens..cuz i was complaining tht my pens arent working.
like who wud have thought abt tht la..swweeeet ehs..thanks humi

i think thats abt it.
love all.
bye

cant wait to go zoo.yay?
lols..

KALKIEEEEEESSSSWAARAAAAN I MISSSSS UUU

i'm not angry with you.to my stalker=D

she turns 18

This post is a SPECIAL one.

Happy Birthday To My Shona Sayang.

Heys.
my sweetest wishes to my dearest.
I wish you have a wonderful year ahead
Thank You for all those advice i needed when i was crushing and thrashed to the ground.
Every single sec i spend with u is the sweetesT and the most memorable ones
And those time when i wanted to run away thanks for the support and advices to make me stay in control.and knowing u is a gift I'm telling you.
not everyone cud get to know u and be so close to u.
I'm so lucky to have you in my life.
i love u so much .
no word cud describe how much i love u .
Just wanna let u know that I'm always here for u.
we have gone through much.
yes those small little misunderstandings but u know what that's what which makes our bond stronger
and you know it yourself that I'm here for you and always will be!
this is a small way of appreciating you sayang.
i love u =)


all in yellow just the way you want it=D

pain in the heart

time-check:10.10pm

KALKIESWARAN ELAGOWEN

two years since my dearest left this world.
many shed tears two years back.
and i am still crying till today.
for i can never get over it.
no matter how much i try.
it hurts so badly.
i relli dunno who to tell or how to tell it.
he mean so much to me i really cnnt tke this.

i misss himm soo mucchh.
i love u bro.
i relli wish u r in good hands now.
wish u keep smiling.
jus the way u was.
the oni once i saw u not smiling when u left.
hias.
it fucking hurts me so much.
i cnnt find my way out.
and time is not healin anything.
words cnnt describe how i feel.
noone cud mke me feel better.

i wish i had a shoulder to lean on.
i love u like my own brother.
rest in peace anna.
i love u.
u will always be the one and only esh.
and noone can replace u no matter what
and u will always be my first then the rest comes

i jus wish i cud see u once.
give u a big hug.
man i wonder how wud i be if i were to see u now.
wud have run towards u crrying.
tellling u how much i missed u and how much of problems in life
and how much life sucks without u.
and most of all how much i love u..
hias.i guess its long gone.
babybro i llove and and always will!

tke cre.

last night's nightmare

time-check:9.49pm



black and white.
yes i cried last night.
and yes its been a year since i cried like that.
cause i had my limits.
and when i start to stretch my limits.by keeping quiet and not bloating.
this is wht i end up with.
i dun wanna go back to yst.
but trust me.I wanted someone beside me.anyone would have been good.

And a wrong time to have a misunderstanding with her.
but lucky the right we way said was to stop talkin last night so tht it dsnt mke our situations worst.
but she aint the reason why i cried.
my reasons ARE...
for the past few years.
so if i were to write it here.
u wud cry along.its okay.i rather mke ppl happy then cry.
let my sorrows stay with me.i dun wanna mke ppl worry..


my bro can be really supportive and loving.
yesterday he was the sweetest thing.
so much love in wht he told me.
and i kinda start lookin up to you more recently.
loving u more actually.i sense smth not right recently with u.
u seem more stressed up i wish things get better..

and to my 2nd bro.
i cnnt imagine life without u.
when deep told me abt the accident.
i was soo shocked.hias.i pray hard nth happens to u and u stay safe.
i love u so much bro.

ok wht else.
oh five days since i fell sick.
i dun seem to be recovering.
and whye cuz i got no time to tke my medications.
haha elan so cute msg me evry morning to tke me medicine.


People have been showing me more attention recently.
people have been more caring towards me.
its nice but at the same time i wonder whye.
how true it is?wht do they want from me?
or isit my love i shown so far is comin baq in return.
but its nice to have manny around in such a time


its gonna be two years since esh left tom
20th january 2007 at 1.03am
evrything chged.
i miss u bro.
rest in peace

sick

time-check:9.23



not feeling well..
ahiya.whye siah.
my cough is killing me.
evrytime i cough like smeone is stabbing a knife into my heart!
it hurts...
i hate to be sick.
i cant affors to skip lessons.
one day of work missed,and pooof ill go mad when i return to school
its hard to catch up day's work..seriously thats the speed we r moving in.

with this puffy eyes.
with unsteady legs.
with a head which feels like smeone is takin a hammer to hit on.
and a cough which is relli killing my throat.relly sucks
i still walk to school to and fro
exception today where i took a taxi to school.
cuz i missed my bus and i was too weak to walk=D
YES ITS STUPID TO TAKE A CAB WHEN UR HOUSE IS ONI 10MINS WALK AWAY


Anyways preethika's leg was injured.as usual she keeps her eyes behind when she walks.
yeah she is turninn 6 oni..
anyways hope she recovers fast.

continuin
yesterday during english lesson

mrs bala selvan : class we dun use the letter "z" as we follow the british and not the americans
prass:so we dun use them at all?
mrs bala selvan: yes.if u use it.u wud be pinalize.
the guy sitting beside me sing siag: SO TEACHER,ZEBRA AND ZOO WE SHALL PRONOUNCE AS SEBRA AND SOO..???HAHAHAHAHA
mrs bala selvan:*blank face*


damn fuckin lame but damn funny la..


HAHAHHAHA..
THANKEW xue min,christine,aswini,chanthini,sangeetha,emel,humi and many more for takin care of me today.appreciate it alot..

and yes i jus lost my voice.due to screamin at the top of my voice jus three mins ago.
yes.smetime i wonder whther was it a rule to stay in the house u were born from.weird thought but yeah.


so tom if i do not speak but smile im not arrogant.
im jus covering up my stupid problem=D

teachers are so unpredictable

sweetest addiction

time-check:10.36pm



disappointments plus shocking news..

congrats to uma mageswari and sangeetha mogan for doin well

preethika not to worry.hope u work harder and do better the next time round

for my dearest one.
yes this is ur secound try.
maybe this is jus not ur thing.
more then anyone i was affected most.
being in between ur hurt and parents hurt.
trying to mke u and parents feeling better at the same time
not a easy thing to do i say.stuck in between.cryin silently
yes it hurts more then expressed.


and oh boi.
my syang not fine..hias hope evrything gets better


lan,yes heard abt the bad news..hope u get over it.
its easy to say but u goin thru it yes it hurts.
wish i cud help.but no matter wht others say u wudnt hear it.
cuz u r not in tht state of mind
tke cre brother.i love u so much

Spend it wisely

woaahhh


ALL i needed was a friday night all to myself.
to sleep

shocked?
thought i was about to say goin out late at night..
NO.
i needed sleep.
regained energy after a good night sleep last night.
4sleepless nights due to work in school.
and my god.i jus need some rest.

my room is baq to neat and tidy=D.
Studying when noone's home is totally good.

evrything went almost well today.

and sad to say my saturday is gone=(

anyways.
im starting to miss u more evryday esh.
hope ur in good hands.
i love u so much bro.

i writting in with a bad mood.
im hungry
im annoyed.
im tired
im having a headache
my whole body aches.
im sleepy too

first week of sch was a unexpected packed week.
yes..i didnt had time to blog.
mumz birthday
thanks to love and my clasmates..wudnt have manage to do it without ur helps.

and really,thanks alot love for wakin up so early to come over to help me out.
appreciate it alot.

so manny things has happened.
i always get to bed at 1plus.
wakin up at 5.45
haven caught up with my sleep.
and food??oh my god.
i barely had three meals a day this week
ive been skipping meals cuz i have no time to eat.
that sucks but i dun have a choice.

when i come home today.
damn pissed with her damn attitude.


u leave me wondering tonight.
when i saw ur eyes.i was like.
wht the hell was i thinking?forgetting the past?no way.
yes.
not to worry ill find my own solution to get out of this crap.

anyways dead tired.
gonna crash to bbed early


nights.