i feel the same way about u when u felt about me when u was 13

time-check:9.31pm

okay today is one of my special day..
the day which was spent only with my loved ones.
and i knew how much i really love him=)


okay lets start from last night.
last night a fight broke out..
and it was abit more for my brain to give up hope on patience and to screw evryone and walk out of the house not with any intention to go baq.
evryone have limits.
and comeon im hurt enough at home
and chanthini said " u are so differen when u r at home and outside..u seem so happy outside"
totallt agreed.
right now happiness is in the outside world baq to my story

so since i was controlling myself and since i kept quiet i started cryin...
i do tht when my mum starts crying.
okaay.so yea.
i had to talk to smeon and cool it.
orelse i knoe i wud have gone literally mad.
so yea..msg uma first she kept me occupied relli appreciate it..

nesh was sso much love ..
the minute i told him.he came over my house.
crazy la..but yea he came over at 11.30pm plus.
then talk to me..and seriously he was so much of love
talk talk..thanks so much=)appreciate alot da.
oh wait then poor boy was soo sleepy and sick he fell asleep..
jus got no words to say abt u la..
thank you so much prettyhead.he left i think around 1.30am
i owe u=)and if u still rmber twoo years time if u rmber thiss day then ill tell u
get well soon tke cre of urself!


whtelse
afternoon went to meet mahesh anneh azmi and deep at causeway
haha disturb azmi like crazy!
then keep tellin mahesh anneh not to get angry...anger management problem la he.

then they went out i went bukit panjang went to esh anna house.it his birthday today
went there..spent my time therew with amma appa.yea i call esh anna parents tht..
cuz i treat esh like my own blood bro..so yea...watch movie ..
talk talk....i made evryone there happy.i saw everyone.

except my dear esh anneh..missin u so much..sitting on ur sofa right exactly where u sat.
missed evrything..evrysingle thing i see in ur house jus reminds me of the things u do when i came ur house evry single time i was free..and it still hurts to knoe u r not here anymore.
i still cnnt accept u aint here anymore.
i miss u..
and we used to plan when i turn 16 and then u turne 21 on the same yr.we wanted to do smth
this yr my dear esh turns 20.happy birthday bro.
the one who i will always respect and love.
death cant do us part.
ull always be loved and rmbered by me.
time will never heal this hurt i carrry tht u r no more.
till my last breath ill love u .as promised ill always love u bro.
rest in peace.dun worry..takin good care of ur parents.they are fine.
vicsona and gowri akka and anna are fine too.
tke cre of ur self.and next time jus be more careful pa.


didnt had heart to leave the house but had to.
went home took shower.
uma and chan came all e way to my house to fetch me then we went to temple
pray hard..did prayers for esh .
felt better after tht.
chanthini was relli nice to be with.
uma was jus there for me.always had been there for me actually

then we left to causeway
send ma sayang baq..saw john with loadz of ppl
changed alot.sighs.
anyways went mac with umz..
saw john bro steven and pristina.
after tht umz went out with momo
when i and umz went to eat...started to eat she jus woke up went to tke curry sauce for me.
my fav ..usualy i prefer curry sauce then chilli sauce.cnt believe she rmber this..thats crazy sweet.
love u darleeng
i went baq..

and today u mke me realise so much.
i look at u more then wht we are now.
whye?i dunnoe.but i love u.
so much.


and thanks to those who cared so much.
i lovee al

She dun feel the same way u feel

time-check:7.27pm


every photo gives a certain type of memory i believe.
some its good smetime its jus not the way u wanted it..
i dunno whther u felt it.but i felt it today.
when i msged u.i didnt get a reply.i guess u have moved on.
its nth wrong moving on.but have u forgotten ur past?
i believe u have forgotten it all.

today i had a very heavy heart.and i thought why.
i didnt do anything wrong.i didnt get aangry.
i got nth to worry as exams are over.
then whtelse.i think ive got the answer.
the people my people has moved.

isit worth..arent evryone worth?
why cnt evryone jus share..why do they jus wanna grab those who give me happiness.
i jus dun get it..i relli dun see the point in takin away someone special treasure..
well i guess this is life.and nth is permenant.
i love evryone except him.
so tht when i die i dun die with a regret that ive forgotten to show my love to a person or so.
i try my very best to mke the best out of it..

k lets change it..
i post the letter to my dear joshuel pravin vinson.
hias..missing him so much..

cnnt wait for dec 6 when lan comes out.

so manny things happen in soo little time.

like i told uma.
i dun have anything to worry about but i have a heavy heart i dunno why.?
but seriously if i have done anything wrong.im relli sorry cuz i didnt mean anything which hurts others..maybe it was out of anger out of love.or jus cudnt tke u moving on..or jus u betraying me.
betrayal might not be the right word actually..

and my fever is really making me feel so weak.
i feel so sick i could barely carry thingss.
this fever is one of the worst i ever had.
get well soon>? nnehs not happening.


i jus dunnoe whye
i miss u so much..
when im not suppose to.
i think its jus my stupid mentality which tells me i love u.
but my brain tells me its jus affection.it aint true.
it aint true.
u hurt me.u are not meant to be.
but ill stay by ursside
i cnnt imagine ur life being ruined.
dunnoe whye but so.

splendid!

time-check:9.49pm

okaaay soo much happened
ive been having a crazy holiday!
=) good and BAD...

khayy i went out so much i cnnt rmber when and where i went..
but the latest things was i met umz then went bugis to do mini shopping then went all the way to vivo to meet umy then went to cck to stay in cousin sister house for seven days.ha..
i had great fun la..

evryday i eat outside food la..
pizza hut,causurina,mac,subway, dunno where all we went to eat..

i had a great time with dhinesh!!! he wasss relllli the sweetest la..

umy and chandini came over to my cousin plazce jus to meet me...missed them so much la!
i relli had a great time with all my loved ones..

except lan and mahesh who isnt ard..
went it...grrrrrr.miss them la..
specially lan..hias..

and boi im missing yu sooo much...
essshh ur bd coming mus go ur house..

wait i forget

last last saturday i played poker from 12am till 5.45am then 6 went with my three broz drive to buy breakfast then go out with whole family.damn fun sial...
then previpus saturday came this time at cck..we play poker like mad siah !!! whole night...
play saturday and sunday night...damn fun sia


now im not feeling well..
hiaaaaayaaah
high fever.head spins crazily

saturday ill be off to malaysia with my babe!rubah swithart!!
cnnt wait man,,gonne have a splendid time at malaysia with her..
its gonne be a blast=D

Sometime i jus dun understand my bestfriend.
i jus get yu...for a minute u are the nices sweetest person
and the other u dun talk to me...and u tell me some misunderstandin happened between u and him but u didnt tell me wht isit? U R suppose to keep me upddated...cuz the way we are?i jus dunno ...it jus seems im always puttin in my effort always makin the first move.
when wud u ever realise this.i wonder..
i jus wish u were like how u ussed to be..which aint gonna happen..isnt it

fortune

time-check:9.14pm


have been getting angry easily lately
frustrations..stress..anger..
omg wht did i do...


and i think i knoe...


so i went to a this future thing.
i dun wanna elaborate...


wait i wanna write so much
but im soo annoyed i jus dunwanna scream things out.

and im soo angry withmyself.

unable to spend time with my loved ones.
im really sorry

UMZ,UMY,CHAN SYG,VIDETTE.
missin u all so much.
im relli sorry...i haven been meeting u all
i think u all knoe whye too...
im really sorry but ill meet u all realli soon..

and my dear lan got injured..
hias...cudnt u be jus more carefull
love u and miss u so my lan.



and i jus realise.
the closer i am to a person i tend to fight more.
and the one who break through it has been my real true frens.
and yes for tht i appreciate and love


super shagg.

heavy heart.


rubah darleeng
i miss u soooooo muccchhhh
thanks forr evrything
yesy im on e phone wit u..



and for u.
u havve been gone.
nnot a word not a msg not a thought.
and whye?let me say its because u dun give a fuck
u dun cre.
all u care is ur life ur frens ur galfren who u r not true to.
and i hve beeen nice standin byurside all the while..
not evry story has a happy ending..so yea...get a life.
im not there when u realli need me..


nick dun worry
believe in karma
losers will get their ass kicked one day!
part and parcel alright tke cre!

uP ThrusT

TIME-CHECK: 11.37AM nthin exciting has happen thats whye haven been bloggiin beside tht my laptop is giving me a hard time!!! internet connection gone mad. and wht ive been doin alot of thinkin abt this whole year.wht went wrong or where are the mistakes..and i realise there manny things have repeated and i fell into it twice. and evrything is the same jus one more thing..someone to die. yes when smeone i knoe dies then ppl from nowhere come baq to me and live the same normal life. and i will be the idiot who will jus follow on blindly.thats wht ive realise And i hope next year it dosent happen again. i dun cre if i had u but i dun wan another close one of mine to die so anyway that was that anyways cousin brother comin over tonight! and prass!cmeon write a letter and mail it to ur dearest. he misses u as much as u do! dun delay it! tom mus go sembwang. they r doin nisha's birthday! cant wait=) might be stayin over there..see how=) not forgettin tom morning there is cca=p thank you priya for evrything. thanks for the book to it relli did help my mum. thanks alot.WILL be remembered and appreciated. khay got to get ready for my tuition at marslling..hias tired.. know u . as i think more of you i jus reali u aint worth. though my mind knows u r nth but the same as the rest of the guy population i still find it hard to forget.but when i think of u ,i feel frustrated i dun see love in but the other way round. u treat woman like candy bars and that is whye relationship never lasted that is whye the woman u loved dearly never wanted u. arrogance is ur mirror image..

Not a reply,
and i made the right guess.
when u r with a girl im invisible
when a girl dumps u or u dump her or u have noone u come to me.
but i still accept u baq.
do u realise tht.?
i dun think so

Grow up

time-check:6.42pm

soooooo letme think

Friday wht happen?
went to schoool last day didnt seem to be like last day i knoe whye
then went home slack home then mr nesh came over
had some lil misunderstandin with him and his annehlove
then cuz of tht smth else happen
sorry cnnt write here wht..of cuz im not spoilin my bestfrens face here.lols.
khay

soooo ......
i have the dame attitude u have.
i have the same ego problem as u.
and i seiously think its not ur fault.
and cme on sucha a small thing and she wants to fight.
i dunno wht to say...im angry at her cuz she made u angry..
and dun hurt urself..it jus doesnt help..and im always here for u asshole.
tke cre
anything jus call.=)lovess.

oh btw thanks for dropping me =)

then wht.
went cca in the morning=)
saturday night went for sme birthday party at some place
my momma was dressed up..she was sooooo gorgeous..
=) picturess and pictured..we took alot !!
haa..then after tht she drop me at amk.
went to stay over cousin bro house=)had fun=)

sunday mum's husband birthday
went swensense whack oni..lols..
ice cream madness=D! THEN went granmother house
after tht come baq wdls..talk to mahesh anneh ahile then go homee=)
tiredddd..

then todayy went meet taufiq after his soccer
then me him vikram went to eat at kfc..so much of stories to talk abt
viki damn funny siah..then viki had to leave me and taufiq went to study at library
after tht after tht he send me to bustop 903 ..
taufiq made me loose two buss .!! fuckin whore laa hee.haha.
but thnx for the company

after tuition went home
chats ..
ok

PERSONNAL??
like as if im gonna tell e whole world right.
me onli..unless u think im not trustworthy la.
and i dint wanna tel u cuz i didnt knoe how to ...
okhey.i got to get goin.



i cnt rmber whther i wrote abt me goin bowling wit bro and so yes i went bowling too
had great fun=)