i feel the same way about u when u felt about me when u was 13

time-check:9.31pm

okay today is one of my special day..
the day which was spent only with my loved ones.
and i knew how much i really love him=)


okay lets start from last night.
last night a fight broke out..
and it was abit more for my brain to give up hope on patience and to screw evryone and walk out of the house not with any intention to go baq.
evryone have limits.
and comeon im hurt enough at home
and chanthini said " u are so differen when u r at home and outside..u seem so happy outside"
totallt agreed.
right now happiness is in the outside world baq to my story

so since i was controlling myself and since i kept quiet i started cryin...
i do tht when my mum starts crying.
okaay.so yea.
i had to talk to smeon and cool it.
orelse i knoe i wud have gone literally mad.
so yea..msg uma first she kept me occupied relli appreciate it..

nesh was sso much love ..
the minute i told him.he came over my house.
crazy la..but yea he came over at 11.30pm plus.
then talk to me..and seriously he was so much of love
talk talk..thanks so much=)appreciate alot da.
oh wait then poor boy was soo sleepy and sick he fell asleep..
jus got no words to say abt u la..
thank you so much prettyhead.he left i think around 1.30am
i owe u=)and if u still rmber twoo years time if u rmber thiss day then ill tell u
get well soon tke cre of urself!


whtelse
afternoon went to meet mahesh anneh azmi and deep at causeway
haha disturb azmi like crazy!
then keep tellin mahesh anneh not to get angry...anger management problem la he.

then they went out i went bukit panjang went to esh anna house.it his birthday today
went there..spent my time therew with amma appa.yea i call esh anna parents tht..
cuz i treat esh like my own blood bro..so yea...watch movie ..
talk talk....i made evryone there happy.i saw everyone.

except my dear esh anneh..missin u so much..sitting on ur sofa right exactly where u sat.
missed evrything..evrysingle thing i see in ur house jus reminds me of the things u do when i came ur house evry single time i was free..and it still hurts to knoe u r not here anymore.
i still cnnt accept u aint here anymore.
i miss u..
and we used to plan when i turn 16 and then u turne 21 on the same yr.we wanted to do smth
this yr my dear esh turns 20.happy birthday bro.
the one who i will always respect and love.
death cant do us part.
ull always be loved and rmbered by me.
time will never heal this hurt i carrry tht u r no more.
till my last breath ill love u .as promised ill always love u bro.
rest in peace.dun worry..takin good care of ur parents.they are fine.
vicsona and gowri akka and anna are fine too.
tke cre of ur self.and next time jus be more careful pa.


didnt had heart to leave the house but had to.
went home took shower.
uma and chan came all e way to my house to fetch me then we went to temple
pray hard..did prayers for esh .
felt better after tht.
chanthini was relli nice to be with.
uma was jus there for me.always had been there for me actually

then we left to causeway
send ma sayang baq..saw john with loadz of ppl
changed alot.sighs.
anyways went mac with umz..
saw john bro steven and pristina.
after tht umz went out with momo
when i and umz went to eat...started to eat she jus woke up went to tke curry sauce for me.
my fav ..usualy i prefer curry sauce then chilli sauce.cnt believe she rmber this..thats crazy sweet.
love u darleeng
i went baq..

and today u mke me realise so much.
i look at u more then wht we are now.
whye?i dunnoe.but i love u.
so much.


and thanks to those who cared so much.
i lovee al