Party of the year

one day for this year to end.
And its the beginning of a new year.

And this is when evryone starts changing.
Changes is good.As far as it dsnt go too wild..

Im gonna party till midnight,
and when i start my new yr.
its all gonna be new and different.

two things to control in life is
DESIRE AND ANGER.

with tht i think many problem cud be solved actually


Tom night's gonna be a blast


But i keep havin this feelin in my heart.
like i dun wanna move forward.
and its been two yrs since esh left.
and hurt has never moved away as far as i know.


Right now.Im finding for that peace in me
I feel so complicated,'
HELP ME'

Dont follow me

The sweetest and sour one.
i still love u bro

time-check:1.35am

Not sleepy
and have somethings to accomplish exactly at 3am


so yea.
when some falls ill.
u would say "get well soon"
or least say nth.
well it was e first i heard.
it was.u know how many time she have seen the doc in a month

everyone asked my two weeks baqq.
my relatives.
they asked.."hows amma?"
"hows things at home"
"how mum now"
"hows everything"

and my answer was yeah everything is good going fine.yes yup good.
but i silently spoke to myself.
everyone is fine except me.
does that count?i dun think so

even some1 whom i knew for long.
didn't get what i was going through.
But its good in a way.
she dun worry much.

anyways.
yes I'm not well.
physically and mentally.
heart feels heavy.
i realise it happens every single night.
cant help it neither cud i avoid it.

I do not see the point.
i dun see the worth.
its nth useful.
but its there.
hurt.yes that.

sorry tonight.
i end it with no ending or a solution.
i wish i had one

Happy Birthday Baby

time:12.55pm




Today is my switiepie's birthday
sadly she went to malaysia.so i cnnt meet her.
but i called her at 12 .a call from spore to malaysia.oh boy wish my bill dsnt rise.
anyways yea
.but in her house over there was onli 11.54pm
so i dun cre.cuz she's a spore baby=D
SO I WISHED HER FIRST=)
anyways.
happy birthday swithart.
thanks for evrything.
when i thought my life was jus over and there's nth i cud do abt.
u were there for me.u showed me life wasnt ending.
thanks for all the care,love and concern.
ive known u for almost 12 years.
and yes i treasure it alot.12 years !its a big thing.
we gone through thick and thin.
but we have made our bond stronger each time we fight.
i love u baby sis.As promised i will alwys be there for u..
i love u=)

so went to buy uniform with taufiq and vineeth today morning at 9am
feel very annoyed to wke up so early.
later mus go see doc..neck swell like mad.very pain..hias..


and thanks bavani for the concern too.
love u so much.i Love eu


i can go on and on.
ive so manny ppl to thank.
too many actually.
i jus wish i had to thank evry single one who had helped me so much.
i will and always will appreciate...thanks evryone.

strong shoulder i wanna lean on

time-check:11.23pm

ok singapore idol.


next



the minute they left my house
uma and chan.
they brought my happiness along.

Sometimes i wish i had jus one full day spending with sweetest most loved ones
I jus wan a shoulder to lean on.To cry it out.
yes crying nver solves anything.i knoe that.
But it helps me let out some of the bleed inside.
Sometime thats when people start searchin for a partner in life.
to love,to be loved,to care,to be cared.
right now.
im indeed searching for a place for peace and love.
im not talkin abt bgr .nt tht kind of love.
jus peace and love.
Pure.

No matter how much i try.I jus Cant find it.
it leaves me tht momment i step into the "hell"
or when angels leave the "hell"
u wudnt possibly understand.
but those who do.that mean u truly care for me..much appreciated thanks.
those who dun and tried to ..also appreciated.

anyways.
Right now.i wish i was with him.
Ive repeated this million time and never got tired of it.
when im with him,i never cared a single bit cuz i knew he will always be there for me to lean on.
and now he aint there.
he is gone forever.he lives in my heart .
but he jus aint there for my let it out.

evryone cud hang in there to a certain limit.
I have been stretching them.
i jus wish evrthing comes to an end

thanks for listening

Snow flakes

Merry christmas..


and yes ive found out u werent okay.
wow my instinct getting better by the day.
today was abit annoyed..
smth gotten into my momma.
she is getting weirder by the day..


oh man i jus wish evrything falls in place next year
jus the way ive planned it
for studies and for friends and specially saving up
i jus realise ive spent more than what im suppose to during my holz.
goin out evryday is jus not fun and entertaining its at the same time..money drains out=p.
lucky i dun smoke..like those ppl spent 10dollars on it.pfft.waste of money.

anyways.
school is gonna reopen.
ive gotta sort things out at home.
ego and anger.
ive gotta give in jus like wht chanthini said.
i gota listen to her.she makes alot of sense actually.
man i miss them all..


im so hungry right now..


so sad this year.family didnt have an outing for christmas.
i better make sure new year be a blast.it better be.
i love them all thought smetime big family mean big problems=)

okay whtelse.
did loadz of shopping.
not gonna throw away old ones.
jus gonna mix and matchh.
im not done buying.still got few more..


and for my school bag..its sucha headache.


and something is wrong with my next..
it hurts badly ..
mum since she is a nurse.
she says when u fall sick realy badli and dunno wht explanation she gave u got the pain.
and this pain is killing me.oh boy go awayy laaa..
but im not sick ..im perfectly fine..jus dun get the thing..


anyways .
evryone got drunk last night.so did he..


and i did a mistake yst.i jus wish it dsnt create a problem in the future.


adioz.

the post u thought wud be long but isnt

crazy holidays.



Actually had so much to write.
sso i got lazier each day to write.


cuz i went malaysia with my switie for a week.more than a week actually
and sooo much happen....
we went through thick and thin.
i had a great time with her.and man i miss that place
those ppl are so sweeet.i love them
cnnt wait to go there..
the three days was jus sweeeet!!

the day i came baq..
i started goin out..
i slept like around 12am or 1am wake up ard 11am then go meet this fren that fren..
i try to meeet evryone whoever wants to meet.cuz from next yr..
less enjoyment more studying.cnt play with n levels.
gotta concentrate and prove some assholes that i can do well academically too.
ive gotta stay focus..


and i posted after manny ppl tellin me to update
so here u go.


And..next year its gonna be different.
im gonna be different.
Very different actually
think twice before i say or do.


And lovE.Not for the next two years.
no time for it.nor no time to Wait for ASSHOLES.
i jus learnt my lesson yesterday that many change for the worst and its stupid of me to wait
ive waited for 3yrs and thats it.byebye..

Im sorry to anyone who was hurt by my words.
sincere sorry(s) to everyone.
never meant to hurt anyone.


i believe and love =)
tke cre all.



my dear one came out,but hasnt met up with me
he told me he wud call..he hasnt.it has been a week.
bro i miss u so much.where are u?

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVRYONE