clearence.../ hurt in the inside

yst night i msq kumar ...long msg i dunwanna write luhs..
i knoe i wudnt get a reply cuz he is not in town as evryone knows..
so i got a reply today morning..to talk in school...
met priya then to school..wanted to talk things out with kumar but preethi came late and kumar was with unwanted ppl whom i dun wanna see anymre was with him...so i jus blindly walk pass telling kumar smeother time la...

healthylifestlye whooo..exercising..cant wait for the turn to run ...me and preeethi planning to run..hahah..we r the healthy ppl babeh!!hahahah....abs wanna!haha
then yea disturb kumar and sarah then baq to class ......saw hawtstuff=)haha hot la..duh~


then wht uh..oh recess suppose to sit and settle things for priya things..but she din sit with us..not my fault they came down late....=p!!

then after school follow ain to her house then baq to school...love followed me to buy famous bubble tea..green apple ice blended no pearl but green apple jelly...*breathes*
hahha..try it..its nice..so love tried it she wanted to try smth knew..well it wasn't new to me..
clearing doubts with her..i notice manny jealousies + upset eyes all around..its hard to satisfy everyone..hope u understand..im really trying my best..dun mke me bloat...

then sherinyaaaa wanted to buy ice creamy then i follow her..then i saw suhan its been long i talk to him i think/??so i call him to accompany..then sheri cheat me..ice cream man run away alr...then suhan scold me=(not really scold actually=)

then i was trying my level best to mke things right for the rest..well im the one ending up talking..i think it was a waste of time..no offence ppl...oh and anyways i didnt talk or wanna talk to u after wht u have said that day about friendship..i got distance=)

dun mke my life hard..its not the the day or rather not the right month for me..dun mke things hard cause if i blow..im never turning baq..dun test anger..smth which i always and nver could conquer..

sooo chatz with my secret friendship fren..hahaha..crack ur heads and guess it out idiots..
haha..i told her evrything..like me and bestfriends problems..and bestie's prob too..
i accepted her apologies givingg her another chance i really think she has changed..i hugged her when she left..i felt different towards her..(no lesbians thoughts eh!) haha..different as in unexplainable..its jus a good feeling in me.

.baq to school after npcc quiz at marsling sec ..
well i was angry for the scenes i see..the scenes i see are sins..lol i rhyme!lmao

so i was angry in the outside..covering my mouth and screamin in rage!hurt in the inside.
never knew why u cudnt understand the good people...i rellie wish u find out faster...

sherinya and i had talked things out.we will see how it goes..

omg indrani has tagged me after long..i miss him so much luh..never chat with him or see him long..so stressed up luh indrani.."mr g" medcine needed..

emel,hope things go well..dun worry im holding u tight alr so that u wont have a chance to fall..
im here for u...tke cre babe ..muah..ily!!

no more the satisfying hugs..all i felt was u did it for the sake...thanks for such wonderful hurting things u said..for the things ive done to mke things right for u..lol....=)

backbackbackstabbed=)

wednesday:meet bavani(ill go insane if i dun meet her soon..i really need her by my side)
thursday :nisha..missed.missing.ily!
last paper for exam:meet alan sayang..watch movie..!!

weekends out of house.....when night never ends...and i go"night is still young"

effing hurt in the inside...thanks to best friends..ha...life eh?
will try to ignore negative and stay focuz with positive

i knoe i knoe esh..u r not happy ...for the things ppl do to me..
its k esh..i can handle it..i think?dun worry i still love u more k??haha
well if oni u were here i wud hve pinched ur cheeks so hard..grrr
wilren asked me today"ur god bro eswaran right?its been a year but ur msn nickk still got r.i.p esh..so long alr wht"
prass:no matter how manny years passes by..ill always love him the most...he is irreplacable
wilren:whoa k..

thoughts of u is back dear boi..missin u so much..nt a day i dun think of u..love ya..guide evryone..wish u never left me behind..u shud have brought me along with u..
love u esh...tke cre...memoried never fade.