HURT

k right now i feel fucked up..
sorry but thts how
i feel..


and jus how manni mre days is this gonna be like this.
u give me mental torture
it hurts me so much in the inside.
i cant think i cant concentrate.and why cuz u give me silent torture
my exams one side u cryin at the other side..

for a min u be normal when i walk away u cry
where did the old u go.
the woman which i knoe who was strong
more then u r hurt.seeing this whole fucked up problem i fuckin gonna become crazy..
as in seriously turn mad..and get admitted to mental hospital..
evryne mking me go crazy,relli mad..

no seriousli.
i relli wonder why this happens to me?
whthe fuck i did?
probably sins i did in the past i guess?
but how much mre do i have to go through this crap.
fuck i cannt handle this on my own.
boi i jus wish i was never in this world.
i regret even existing in this damn world..

she is hurt and im hurt mre.
i see her and i see him
i see the whole story
and whts my age again.
15...wht the fuck..u fuckin expect me to see this all day?
all night u wan me to cry..
fuckin depriving

and seriousli .
friends,,
trust me not whoever u want them to be beside u wud be.
those "gd fren" never asked a word..
those frens who i didnt expect to ask me a word are there for me advicing me
ppl like uma,thinesh,rubah,lan,john,azmi,tivya,thinesh,rahayu,humairah,rahayu and mre.
and half of these ppl dunnoe the problem but they jus stayed beside me.
relli appreciate it.


ANYWAYS happy birthday bruno dunstan
happy birthday ranjini