aaah..i feel so angry with myself..i haven completed any assignments,projects or the things which are suppose to be done last week.i have been postponing manny things to a later date..its too late now..i have one mre day for finishin up my geog file..i have been really occupied recently..actually the truth is ive not been managing time properly recently.ive been lagging alot seriously..
i jus have enuf time to come home..sinda and homework.,not been doin self study or even reflect..
its my fault not anyone elses..i shud have been more carefull..and i feel i wasted about three weeks...slacking ...really slacking..exams in another two weeks..haven started real revision..ive said it in words tht i need to revise i haven done anything..gosh this is annoying..i hate to rush on work..and now im not done with anything..rushing throught everything.NOT PUTTING 100% EFFORT SUCKS ALOT.its not the best i knoe it.ive got no choice..i gotta stay up late today and finish up..im angry with myself for not doin things on time..gaaaah!

that really sucked k..

time:7.53pm

haven got my replies today..makes me worry but more of upset ...prepaid low?it better be tht reason..orelse my care and concern jus went down the drain alright..hmm,
not getting the remarks which i expected first thing in the morning is not good.plus getting a letter frm yuew was a shock...i was clueless...and i dunnow wht to say.world is so complicated..ontop of this i put up this big smile on my face..it is terrible..
the class beside is a useless..half of the class didnt turn up for school today..thats sucks alot...
lessons..u wont beleive i was attentive for both chemistry and physics..its good to be on track..ahas but i gott loadz to catch for the time i doze off on table..haha.man...im jus wishing i dun kill my mid-year..giving everyone a shock..i really really dun wanna disappoint anyone with sucking results and then cheating myself..

today there;s loadz reflection made..isit too late i realy wish not..
gals im sorry i cnnt meet u often anymore..i really gotta get back to studies..i really got so much to get baq...geo!??my file..sucks...evryone is done with it..oni a handfull..it doesent sound good being called up..fuck!i better get goin!

umaka get well soon ..i miss u soo so much..recess sucked without yuew..man..so much to say..its khay i can wait.now the thang is for u to recover.get well soon darleeenng..*hugs*

bubble u too..get well soon alright??baq to school soon k..!!still sad u didnt eat that day..
get rest alright...haha again im elder than yuew so jus shudup! and cmeone get baq to school..so weird when u dun tag even uma feels it..haha..



hey love,its khay tke it easy..i have trust ...and cmeone i dun find anything wrong if anything happens too..im cool with it serously..haha..jus let me know earlier next time.haha..not hurt alright..jus confused..i still love u alright.i was jus kidding when i called preethi love..haha i oni got love okhay!my duck..haha love u the same..no less alright...dun stress ur self alright...loves

eshu.....help me.here i go again needing ur love and help and guide me through bro.
have not been on right track for both studies and life..the wrong people im mixing with outside school and the studies wht have i done....pleaxe..for now i jus wanna get done with exams..mke my frens understand my situation..ive been not myself lately..i think alot .i hate listening..im like whtever i think is right i do.thats not good eshu..im afraid really afraid smth gonna go wrong=(..miss u dearly..if oni u were here.ill be like..haha fuckcre evrything ive got yuew beside me..
now..i gotta worry so much..and i have a bog portion in my heart where i have yuew.eshu dun tke so much space can!! haha kidding..i love u the most..can think of anyone as great as yuew..thns for the wonderful frens i have..i love all.i love u more dear bro..hope u r safe in god;s hands or where ever u are..rest in peach eshuuu sayang