life was so great that even i knew that smth bad is about to happen cuz i knoe life can never be filled with laughter...expected..

well im gona be open..

it all started...
ain came online.and she asked me whther i like her
i was so darn blur..and she explained to me about it.
she said then sherinnya told her i badmouth abt ain to others..
i was really blur and shocked..and i felt bad cuz..i expected like u knoe u shud trust ur gd fren then the other..well ain was confused on who to beleive..i dun blame her..its people speech which had brainwashed her.

ain,u were ther for me when i needed smeone..why wud i betray u..im not a bitch...seriously..if i were to hate smeone i rather slap that person than move on in lfe rather than betraying!!
cuz i knoe how it hurts to get betrayed..i dun do that.i find it dumb..i beleive in wht goes ard come baq around la..if oni i was lieng i seriously wish i was hit by a car..i fuckin dunnoe how to prove myself right..and im the gal who respects frenship mre than anything..but after this its upp to u to believe as for the rest bitches..trust me...if i dun get baq my friendship get ready to get in return..i swear ill get baq to the idiots who ruin m frenship..i swear!!illl do anything to get baq my frenship...


sec 1...it reminds me of sec 1 life..when peeople do smth or talk smth which i didnt do jus whack oni dun ask all...doin things which I THINK IS RIGHT...the not thinking type...

frens..are suppose to trust one another..not to trust smeone elses speech..
believe in one and not evryone

thanks to kaichong for trusting me.and trying to mke things right..
i really appreciate it alot kaichong..i owe u baq..a fren who i can trust..alot..
thakew kaichong..thnx for the listening ear=)lovess<3

thinesh too..who was there lending me a ear and shoulder..
of cuz i wish u were there helping..but i jus dun wanna mke things realy big for now.
guess u had to offline..wished u stayed longer..its okie lazziness is gotten into u for bad.
loves=)
but i appreciate it laaa..thanks alot

need to update umaka about this...and i dun think i gonna get my frens involved la..
so gilfrens dun be offended that i didnt tell u anything jus yet..i jus wanna get things over before tellin alright.

eswaran anneh,why all this stupid things all happening siah..wht the hell did i do..i stayed out of trouble..i talked less to people who had betrayed me before..i changed myself for who?you!yea...i chged my whole self...from a person who fails,roam,whack,slap,made problems,and evrything to a whole new person, who dun talk to brother;s frens much,studies,and all the good things..wtf..
i feel so bad maintaining the distance with my old frens..i chged..and this is wht i get!?u see wht the fuck people can do jus do get u downgraded..and u see the lesser people who there to encourage u..this is humans...humans are jus so annoying...feel like goin baq to basics..poeple are jus not understandable..man this sucks..people might thiink that beacuse of one things prass is getting stressed up or overreacting...this is not the first..i was jus getting blend to an envioronment without u(eshu)..and now its like waaaaaah..soo annoyed..whye eshu ..im sorry i jus cant tke this anymore...and bestfrens??oh gosh im telling u now seriously people dunnow whts the mmeaning of it..bestfrens are suppose to be there when u need them and not jus letting u die half way or wht so ever..maybe it my fault choosing the wrong frens maybe..im sorry eshu if ive let u down or abt to let u down..but this is it.i cnnt keep quiet for evrything i got my limits!
im sorry anneh jus didnt know who to talk to ...lol if oni u were on the phone ill be like crying alr..
rest in peace eswaran bro