Earth shakes

time-check:10.40pm

sch was usual jus got disturbed during recess
my dear mother rahayu steal my wallet..haha

nth much today
watched slumdog millionare in class
jus try to mke subahashini smile even though she try to hide her smiles away.

went uma house after school.
watch kabhi kushi kabhi dunnoe wht i dunno how to spell..
then laugh till like mad.we share the same weakness.
then we felt the earthquake la..
like the whole house shake shake.waaah damn scary but fun siah
had good time with her

went baq to place i wish i wud leave from there faster.
mkin me feel so annoyed.
im so annoyed tht i cry.
being nice for the first few days now baq to sqaure one.
u go baq to how u were.
wht happen to all my sacrifices ive done for u.vanished.
when he called u ..u went.
its like in a competition and tht b** is jus getting the score and credit.
u jus mke me lose trust.
u hurt me once agn.it wasnt worth fightin for u.
u mke mee so angry.more of hurt then anger
no seriously do u even carE?

simple things like having my dinner.
was tht 3rd person mre impt then me?
when he called u to eat u joined in...did u even bother abt me?
for the sake u asked whther i was goin to eat..but i knew u cudnt care less
right now im freakin hungry..u cant be bothered whther i ate.
as blood u dun.
thts whye i say i appreciate ppl when they care for me.cuz i dun get it from them...

like aswini today being sweet during recess.
like lan always mkin shure ive taken my meals.
like anand who always want me to study
like uma who wants me not to get hurt but to find my way out.
like the previous him who wud get so angry when ppl hurt my feelings.and wants to slap my face when i told i was abt to be knock down by a car..
i appreciate it..

shit i got an eextra job to do now.
wiping my keyboard.its wet.


and when i do so much for u.
i sacrfice my happiness my time my frenship my love and my evrything for u.
u jus backfire me.oof all ppl u...man tht seriously hurts.
seriousy hurting me..